LoserGirl's Journal

Glad its Friday.  Its unbelievable to me that a week ago I was feeling suicidal and today I'm feeling really good.  Its partly because I'm not isolating as much and its partly because I feel like I have a direction to move forward.  Working on the food fist is the right course.  Then the money will fall into place.  Coming to this website has really helped me.  The support is wonderful.  The hugs.  The feedback.  And also seeing just how far I've really come.  I'd forgotten what it was like when I first stared recovery.  Reading the posts and 'listening' to people's pain reminds me that I used to be that way too.  And now I'm not.  I still get depressed on and off, but nothing like it used to be.  Now it comes and goes pretty quickly and for the most part, I feel pretty good.  Even if I can't come up with a reason to keep going.  If I'm not going to kill myself - and I guess I'm not - then I have to find a better way to do this thing called life.  One day at a time.