So this is me.
July 3, 2008 4:50pm
Ok, so this is what I've discovered about myself recently. I hide a lot. I've always been a homebody and an introvert, but …
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LoserGirl’s Profile
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LoserGirl
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"If I want a different life, I have to do something different."
About Me
45 years old Never been married Mother to a 22 year-old son Work in Accounting out of neccesity rather than passion. In my spare time (when I'm not suicidal), I'm working on a screenplay.
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Recent Activity
Yesterday
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LoserGirl replied to 2Theresa2’s request for advice about Helping my 8 yr old with everyday life in the Sexual Abuse support group 5:37pm
All good advice here. I just want to add my encouragement to get your daughter into therapy. Studies…
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LoserGirl replied to sarah9999’s request for advice about Therapist in the Sexual Abuse support group 5:11pm
My advice is to trust your gut. But its good that you're asking this question. If you've had this uncomfortable…
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LoserGirl commented on betadog’s journal entry therapy 4:53pm
I'm so glad you went. I know when I don't feel like going to therapy, its because I've got something…
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LoserGirl wrote a journal entry updating their Control diabetes. goal 4:50pm
Ok, so this is what I've discovered about myself recently. I hide a lot. I've always been a homebody…
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LoserGirl gave jaybear an I'm with you 3:11pm
Wishing you peace and tranquility.…
Wednesday
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LoserGirl gave Trying2HealAgain Flowers 4:42pm
I'm sorry you're not feeling well. Hope things get better soon.…
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LoserGirl gave Tierna a Hug 4:41pm
Hoping you are well. Wishing you peace and tranquility.…
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LoserGirl gave ThatOneGuy43 a Hug 4:40pm
Hoping you are well. Wishing you peace and tranquility.…
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LoserGirl gave Surviv101 a Hug 4:39pm
Hoping you are well. Wishing you peace and tranquility.…
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LoserGirl gave supergirlis a Hug 4:38pm
Hoping youa re well. Wishing you peace and tranquility.…
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Journal
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Journal Entry for June 27, 2008
June 27, 2008 12:37pm
Had therapy yesterday. She said it is okay for me to want something. And its ok to have what I want. I broke down. I told her …
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Journal Entry for June 24, 2008
June 24, 2008 6:05pm
Well, I updated my resume today and sent it in to a job posting on Monster.com. Wouldn't that be nice to get a new job and not have to deal …
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Journal Entry for June 19, 2008
June 19, 2008 5:30pm
I am going to get a massage this afternoon. I'm so excited. My massage therapist, Robin, is amazing. And she used to be …
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Journal Entry for June 18, 2008
June 18, 2008 1:10pm
Had an EMDR session yesterday that was VERY INTENSE. But I am feeling so much better. It is amazing to me how well EMDR works. …
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionDiagnosis - Major Depression & PTSD. My father started raping me when I was three and it continued until he died when I was 14. He prostituted me when I was 8 years old. The man he gave me to nearly killed me by smothering and choking me. If I hadn't gotten pregnant and had my son, I would have killed myself decades ago. I've been hospitalized 6 times in the last 18 years. Most recently in January.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Electric Shock feelings in my lips and ears if I missed a dose. Took almost 2 months to get through the withdrawl symptoms.
- Effexor Working / Worked
- Electric Shock feelings in my lips and ears if I missed a dose. And screwed with my memory.
- Meditation Too Soon to Tell
- Recently trying to incorporate Mindfulness mediation in my every day life.
- Paxil Not Working
- Screwed with my memory.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Have been reading/listening to the Abraham books/CDs. Trying to change my attitude about manifesting my reality. "You get what you think about whether you want it or not." Having some trouble with this.
- Prozac Working / Worked
- Currently taking
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Have been in therapy for most of the last 18 years. EMDR has been very effective for healing the trauma from childhood.
- Seroquel Not Working
- 1/4 tablet could make me sleep all night. Can't take during the day. Gained 50 lbs because of this drug. It's also suspected to cause Diabetes.
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- I isolate terribly. So I have very few friends. I cut all ties from my effed up family a long time ago. And I've been in this for a long time - 18 years. The friends and family I do have are sick of it. They feel helpless and scared. I have to protect them from the reality of the depth of my depression.
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- Taking 1 tablet of this to help me sleep. Hit or miss.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- Allergic reaction - my eyes swelled up and were extrememly painful.
- Writing Working / Worked
- Journaling used to be very powerful for me. Lately, I just get annoyed with myself because it is the same old thing over and over.
Close Sexual Abuse
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- I was part of an art therapy group several years ago. I really enjoyed it. It was a good distraction and self care.
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- I'm currently going to group therapy 3 times a week. I was in the hospital in January and they recommended this group.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Telling the secrets out loud helps. It takes away their power.
- \"The Courage To Heal\" Working / Worked
- Excellent, ground breaking book. It was immensely helpful when I confronted my mother.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
I was sexually abused from the age of 3 to 14. My father prostituted me to get money for Christmas. The man he gave me to almost killed me.
Treatments
- EMDR Working / Worked
- I cannot say enough about how wonderful EMDR is. It has changed my life.
Open Financial Challenges
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