DukeDraven's Journal

       I'm tired again so I can't write much.  I've talked to a lot of people about the paranormal after getting interested in the subject three years ago. Before then, I never quite believed in ghosts or spirits. Growing up in a religious household, I was taught "the dead know nothing" and if you did encounter a spirt, it came from you know who. Yeah, right, Satan.

          Well. over several decades, my spirtual views changed considerably. I went from devout Christian (Seventh-Day-Adventist, to be exact) to atheist (only a two-year period for which I'm sorry ) to Buddhist/New Age. I've had my current views for at least 12 years and yet, I always thought that what happened in the spiritual realm, stayed there. I believed people had psychic experiences, but spirits were probably a figment of someone's imagination. I wouldn't even watch the show "Ghost Hunter" during its first season because I thought it was phoney baloney.

       Until one night when I woke up and felt my bed shaking, I remember jumping up and turning on the light in shock and amazement. I kept saying to myself that it wasn't happening. I must have been dreaming. I knew I wasn't, however. In order to go back to sleep, I had to convince myself it was a dream.

        For months, nothing had. Then the bed shaking woke me up again and it was impossible to pretend I was dreaming. I knew the truth. After that, more things began to happen, so many that it become a daily occurrence. There was so much noise in my apartment that couldn't sleep. I discovered that a spirit, a negative one at that was trying its best to annoy and drive me crazy.

       This was one of the most challenging periods of my life. I began researching everything I could find about the suject. At first I thought it was psychokinesis. The show "Ghostwhisperer" had an episode explaining what this is, if you hadn't heard of it. It's when your mind, under stress, causes things to move around the room. Young children, particularly girls, get this. I chatted with someone experiencing this phenonemom.

      I later discovered that I had a spirit attachment, according to my gut feeling and research. I couldn't, however, find a solution to rid myself of it. I talked to actual ghost hunters and psychics, who offered advice which varied and ultimately proved futile.

         When.  I lived in Colorado, I found about a dozen psychiatrists that specialize in removing spirit attachments, so it's a real science and doesn't mean I'm ready for the looney bin. Since I moved from Colorado, the paranormal activity has slowed down, but I still witness it.

         I don't see apparitions or heard audible words, thank god. Knocking, rapping, hearing someone walk into the room and the like, all done in a calculated, mischievous manner, is what I still hear. It's not my MS. You actually feel a presence, someone watching you and constantly letting you know you're being watched by making sounds.

          I wish it were my guardian being of light. It's not. Too much of a troublemaker for that.

       Montel Williams had an encounter with the spirit world, too, and he delve into this subject with a vengeance. Once you experience the unknown, see that curtain drop, I don't think you're ever the same. 

        I know that when I leave this body, I'll still be able to see, think, hear and do things.  Indeed, we are spirits living a physical existence. One day, I'll be able to go back to the Source, to review my life in front of the Council (more New Age ideology that I truly believe) and spend time in heaven planning my next incarnation. If you interested, read Dr. Shakuntala Modi's book "Amazing Healings." I think it's one of the best I've ever read. Peace