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Tuesday, April 1, 2008

This is why I'm antisocial.

So, a few minutes ago, I had to go into the teacher's lounge to run off a test and the Pregnant Teacher is in there, talking about her pregnancy. And all these other teachers are in there, sharing their baby stories and talking about how life is never the same once you have kids. Just talking in the way that people do when they don't know how lucky they are. Joking about how kids take up all your time and acting like they're a burden. And I'm stuck there in the middle of it, thinking about how much I wish I had a baby and how lucky they are. I know they don't mean anything by it, but still. And they all know about me. They know I had a miscarriage. But none of them ever did, so they think it must be something like having the flu, that it sucks for a couple weeks, but then you're over it and all better and you can't even remember what it felt like to be sick. But it's so not. And now, I just feel like crying, but I have students coming in in five minutes, so I can't.

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Oh unfortunatly I know exactly how you feel. I'm on my third miscarriage and it seems like each time it's like I was just sick and the feeling will just go away in about a week. I feel the exact same way. Try to stay strong and keep hope that everything is going to be ok. We will have our turn to talk about our kids someday SOON!!! Keep your chin up. Better days are coming. Positive thoughts!!!I'm here if you need to talk.

trovi
I am so sorry you have to deal with people like that. I've dealt with some real "rude" people before. Stay positive. You will have YOUR day!

ErinJoOT
stay positive your day is coming

ba2008
When I had a miscarriage, my SIL gave me the statistics about how 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage and I guess that was supposed to make me feel better. People who have not had a miscarriage have no f......g idea how it feels and how empty you can feel at times. I don't care how may weeks you are when you lose the baby, you still lost a baby. You don't get over that ever unfortunately. People can be so insensitive.

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