Delissa22's Journal

Two days ago was the 6th year anniversary of my younger sister's death. I feel like such an asshole cuz I acted like it was just another day. It wasn't like I was doing it on purpose or anything. My friend, Rachel was her best friend. When Kira passed away, it brought Rachel and I closer. We became pretty close. Now, we are basically each others only friends. We both are cutters and are going through a lot of messed up shit. Anyway, I had stayed the night @ her house two days ago and she was very distant and sad, but me, I was fine. To me, it's as if she never exsisted. Maybe, I am an asshole. I feel so stupid. I don't think that I have the ability to grieve. How the hell am I suppose to knw if I am grieving or not. I still haven't grieved or anything of the sort over my aunt and that makes me feel even worse. It's like I'm a robot or something. IDK.