is feeling Bad
away for while, walking probably or just feeling sad, or good...we are bound by pain it is the nature of being human. stab me plz. sadness:(
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purply and dead...walking dead...livingdead... just a kookookitty kookykittykat...untouchable...severed...unbeautiful...:)>:@:p duh duh ug ONE DAY AT A TIME...more like one minute at time iiiiiiiiii! sadness hurts so much :(... i been having, well always have the craziest thoughts, but i dont act on them, just lately i think i might :(...depression killing my insides :((( sadness... me being molested has severed me from life and myself and people, i am livingdead willi ever be alive totally and will i ever love myself damn :( a part of me wants to die a big part and im not afraid of that. i almost embrace it and accept it... is that selfish, wrong? :( yesss it is, im such a bad person, but im trying to get better. in therapy, but its hard, still i push on... i wont give into the dead part of me. i live ofr love, i live for my daughter. i love her so much. i want to see her grow u pand be in love and thrive and be happy in life as she is now :) shes so wonderful. i see love life happiness, in here i see hope for myself because of my daughter. i see life worth living through her, for her, with her. :)
im sick interests? more like ocd's walking working out running cutting eating disorder anxiety panic attacks insomnia DID etccc...blah blah blah interests::: family, kitties, animals, every in and about nature, music...the color purple and the number 3, my safe and happy things...my ocds ha. i love so many people and things in life, yet i still feel dead whyyy? becuase my brother and my cousin stole so much of me. i feel dead, but i hang on to the living things around me, real things things that matter. love.
October 5, 2008 3:14am
i dont think its good for me anymore to share my problems anymore.
i dont want anyone to see the bad things in my life cause they are only meant for …
I love you. Take care of yourself. You have so much to give and you don't even know it. Look at all the friends you have here. I am glad I am one of them. God bless, Peggy
I am so with you on this hope saying it helps yu heaps, I am an email away Sharon
thanks,,,,,,,,,,,,,,i'm hangin in there,,,u do the same
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i cut and i think i always will. i have this lingering sadness over myself and the world. i have a lot of problems.
i was molested, it is still so real to me. it ruined my life. i feel cold. i have lingering sadness.
to keep losing weight. i am anorexic, its getting very serious and very out of control.
i think i have this.
fear of lightning and being round a lot of people, sometimes scared to drive long distances. other fears too.
dont wanna talk bout it yet
not ready to talk bout it
sex mmm
starting to drink too much again
i have this thing with the #3. i count most things in threes. mostly when i walk and eat though, other times still too. i feel like if i dont do it something bad will happen. i obsess over purple i collect purple things.i obsess over odd numbers too. i feel like if i dont continue my patterns bad things will happen. oCD is all over my life now. its a necessity.
