well i broke down tonight. I got …
well i broke down tonight. I got into it with my mom about the house we found. Just because its in Hansen …
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Ever feel like you want to be a part of something. I do but what and where I have no clue. I feel blah today. I spent all day sitting on my ass on the couch. Not having a pity party for myself. Just don't feel like turning the lights on. Going outside. Talking on the phone. Lucky I even got up to pee. Well I did take a bath so that was something "productive". Anyone else ever have the feeling of taking all the medication they are on and throwing it down the toliet and never taking it again. I feel like that this very minute. When I look at the 8 bottles that somehow seem to be consuming my life. How am I able to act like I am keeping it all together when I just feel like sleeping my life away. I hate times like this. I am usually a very up beat person but tonight I am in a real weird place and it is UNCOMFORTABLE. Back home when I had this feeling I would get in my car and drive around. Some reason down here I dont feel comfortable doing that at all. I hate tonight being alone. I don't want the drama of another person but I don't want to feel alone. I swear something is really wrong with me. I don't have a clue. Whatever the night is almost over and tomorrow is a new day.
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Wow yes I know exactly what you are talking about. Last night was the same way for me except I did go driving and the whole time I was thinking about checking myself into a hospital I feel like all this crap they have me on is making me mentally worse and worn down. I have always been the person that would have people over and doing something all the time now all I want to do is hide. I have been having really bad thoughts going through my head the past few days and just cant seem to shake it I really do think it is the meds and I also don't know what or who to turn to. You know if you need someone to talk to you can hit me up here or on mysspace I hope things get better just try and keep a positive attitude lol easier said than done trust me I know.......
sean33
I feel this way every so often. I just go with it I think maybe our minds are telling us we need a break.
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