FUCK YOU
i hate being fucking ignored
is feeling Horrible
Promises are just words unless they are fullfilled
i hate being fucking ignored
i have so much angry and hate and pain all balled up in me, and one day im just going to snap hardcore,i dont know what to do anymore, i just want to …
well i have been cutting for 4 r more years, and now i havnt in about 4 months
i was addicted i dont think i am anymore still have those cravings tho cant get in all the way out of my head and plus i have better things to do for one im pregnant and im not going to ruin it im so excited and nothing will make me do coke while in with child, witch will be my whole life =]
im controlling my drinking now, and now stopping becasue i am pregnant =] yeeey
i want to lose 40 pound i think i am over weight =]
i lose my temper ALOT, and i try to be nice but everything just fucking pisses me off, and i hate it, because i know im over reacting but i cant help it, have trouble controlling anger, and my emotions sometimes overcome me and i freak out
ive never been diagnosed with depression, but i dont feel happy bout life anymore, nothing excits me like it used to, i do drugs and drink now, and thats another problem i have, i cant even find a reason to wake up in the moring this world sadens me
on top of everything thats going on in my life, im pregant wow
i know some people with eating disorders and i once used to be belimic
got tooken advantage of when i was drunk
my family is fucked up, and seriouly FUCKING PYCOTIC, me and my mother never talk, i have no one to turn to, my dad is an alcoholic and hit me couple times, and my mom thinks the world revolves around here, and she doesnt care about me anymore i dont think
im very paranoid, and when i get scared i kinda get panic attacks, and it will be because of something stupid or i will think i have a disease and get relly scared and stuff, and then i will accept that im dying, but im not actuallly, its just how my mind works then for no reson at all i get really shaky and freaked out about nothing at all
my brother died April 26 2008 they dont know wat happend to him, i cant get over the fact that hes not coming home today he was 19, and when the cops came to the door i was devistated
lost my brother, totally not excepted October 29, 1988 - April 26, 2008 i miss him soo much this isnt fair =[