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What does it mean to truly love someone? Mood

Saturday, May 10, 2008

I don't know. I don't have the answers.

But I do know that I'm getting to the point to say that I love B enough to let him go. I still don't agree with his decision to end the marriage, but I love him enough step back and let him find his own path and learn from his own mistakes. I know I stifled him in our relationship and didn't allow him a lot of room to grow. I was selfish and needy and needed validation that I was lovable and accepted. But .... I love him enough to let him follow his own dreams; even if those dreams and those paths don't include me.

Most importantly, I'm finding that I have to love MYSELF enough to let him go. I don't want to hold on to someone that doesn't want to be with me anymore.

UPDATED GOALS

Let go of my marriage

Progress 75%

Encouragements: 3

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how brave and strong of you to be so grounded. i hope you find the happiness you deserve too ( : hugs your way...

hBella
I'm just tired of wasting my time and energy on a man that doesn't want me anymore. Or rather, he WANTS me, but doesn't want to be WITH me. You know? He wants me when it's convenient for him. He calls to talk when HE wants to. I have love myself more than to just be sitting around waiting for his calls and attention. I do love him. I'll always love him. But I need to love myself more.

the2ofus
I need to print this up and put it on my mirror and read it out loud every day!

Good for you- I soooooo need to be there!!! I wish I could wish myself as much love and happiness as I wish for him.

PlanetClaire
ran across your profile and of course, I'm always looking to see what the circumstances surrounding each separation. I enjoyed reading this journal entry of yours. It must not have been easy to get to this point, but it looks like you have taken responsibility for your past, tried to make changes and show him your willingness to change and work on the marriage and he has still chosen his path. You can hold your head up high and know you made an effort. Good for you!

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