sarbear28's Journal

Dependency. Mood

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Sometimes I wonder about people. We become so fixiated on something that we arent able to function without it.

Its no longer a desire for mental wellness, it becomes necessity to get through your day.

I used to be this way with cigarettes, saying that I couldnt go do anything without a drag. I was obsessive to the point that I couldnt drive without one. I used to rationalize my quelled anxiety on chain smoking. Two and a half months later, I remember what its like yet I dont have the desire any longer.

I really have no tolerance sometimes for the calls I get from those seeking services at the mental health practice where I work.

People need their medication. I understand that. They need an appointment. They need their Xanax. I understand this too.

What I dont understand is why people abuse their medication. Particularly controls. Ive never taken them. I know alot about them having worked in a pharmacy for years and here as well. I know that they, like any medication that it is a control, are very addictive and are intended for short term treatment. I also know that I have anxiety disorder/ panic disorder. But learned the hard way how to deal with it. I never have taken the medication to treat it so maybe my perspective is subjective.

However I know that most scripts are written this way : BID, QD, QHS, QAM......PRN.....do you know what PRN means? as needed. Does not mean every day.

Its all these people that call in for appointments and yell and scream and through fits because I cant solve their problem to get their Xanax faster. They are all out, and expect me to call it in. I explain that you cant call in Class IV controls, well most controls you cant. Anyway they through a fit.

If you want to solve problems in your life, you have to be the one that sees the problem and take steps to fix it. Stop blaming others and grow up. I dont care how tough your life is or has been. We all have our troubles. Take your meds as prescribed, come in for your appointments and learn how to take some responsiblity, and work on things.

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Comments

I could not have said it better.. Love this. I too was relying on my Xanax. Took it 4 times a day and still that was not enough.. I am now not on any and controlling myself very well..
I so understand what you are saying.

Jaymom11
I never heard of Xanax before DS.I never heard of Klonopin.I think you guys just make the words up to be superior

look2sky
I take xanax, you know that. I take it as needed. My pdoc does write a script every month, sometimes I have 2 scripts I just throw out because I haven't used mine. I can understand your frustration. I'm proud of you that you can get through it without any meds, your a strong girl.

Bluefly
I totally agree with what you said in the last paragraph.

JavaFirst
Hey chica, good for you for kicking the habit!!! Im very proud of you! And for being 43 days sober...BIG HUGSSS!!!!!!!! I agree with you. The dr, my Medical Doctor, no less, gave me all these pills to take for my nerves, bc of the "stress"..Well, life can be stressful and I'll have stress as long as Im alive. I dont want to rely on pills. Love you Sarah Ellen. :) You're a smart, tough lady!

AnjelSeekingPeace
I agree totally!!!!

Teardrop665
Sarah...You said, "If you want to solve problems in your life, you have to be the one that sees the problem and take steps to fix it. Stop blaming others and grow up. I don't care how tough your life is or has been. We all have our troubles. Take your meds as prescribed, come in for your appointments and learn how to take some responsibility, and work on things."

I would of loved to hire you as my Office Manger when I was still in Practice ! Dr Fred

Eyestwo22
I so agree...

LeLeC