krying's Journal

David Wyatt is on my mind hard today, I think I am gonna have a rough day cuz I had a dream that he was alive and well so I woke up expecting to see him lying asleep next to me. This is a parents worst nightmare to lose a child, I keep getting told by people that dont understand at least I do have other kids..imagine if this was the first But that doesnt make me feel any better!  I Love My SON that is sitting up in Heaven, I keep hearing a baby crying in my home, I keep having dreams that he is fine so I wonder will I ever be back to normal? Will I ever learn to cope with the death? I definately see where the death of a child has made people Crazy!

I dont even feel like I fit in this world anymore, My heart doesnt feel strong enough to withstand the pain..I have lost all my strength..I look at these mothers in public with their healthy babies and I Hate them! I know it is wrong to feel this way but, I cant help it, I am heartbroken. I saw a mom at wal-mart her tiny baby in the buggy screaming and she was ignoring him...I just wanted to cuss her out and ask her Do you know how lucky you are to have that baby? Pick him up, cherish him, Dont worry about spoiling him just cherish every moment you have with him.

I know I sound completely out of my mind, or like a whiny box but, I ddont know how to cope I thought I was doing better but, that doesnt seem the case.

GOD Please Help me to accept the death of my son, and allow me another chance.

DAVID WYATT ADAMS I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH! IN LOVING MEMORY JAN. 27 2008