Brooke20's Journal

Well its getting closser again.37 weeks today. although i have had a few health issues wich has landed me in and out of hospital a few times...and back again tomorow. i have hight blood pressure and bad cramping,and the normal swollen body making me look like an inflated blueberry..yum... i just hope she may come a little early. That would be nice..

Still have not heard from My daughter to be's father..typical.. although i must say as strong as i am trying to be, its hard not knowing if he wants anything to do with her or not. but its making it easier for me to move on and just focus on what is most important in my life (my baby). its well overdue, and i should of told him to get ripped earlier LOL!!!

I am so excited to have my baby and wish she would just come lol... every one is always ringing me saying "is there a baby yet"? no, no, no, but i cant wait to say "yes there is".....oh well not to long to go now! im still enjoying being pregnant though, so that may be a little strange to some mums to be cos they are all done with being pregnant... well me to i guess but still enjoying the feeling. Well now im just rambling on......ok going to go now! maybe next time ill be saying ...."SHES HERE"yay....xoxo

Well now only 5 weeks to go!!! i broke it off with my partner on the weekend..he said he was to embarressed to take me out in public looking like this (big), and he still has not told his mum....   it has been hard but i am able to get things done now. I have set up the crib and it looks soo cute..i even put a little nappy in there to pretend my baby was in there..hehe.. she is still moveing in my tummy so much that sometimes it makes me feel sea sick. but i still enjoy the feeling. i had a bit of a scare the other day as i thought my waters had broke when i sneezed, but i think i just have a very weak bladder... eeewwww.. TMI...i have a tour of the hospital i am delivering in next tuesday as the hospital is brand new and only opned a couple of weeks ago... it should be nice..   well i shall write again later...xoxox

Well only 6 weeks to go now.. it still doesnt feel real to me yet...

i am so excited and scared thought . i hope i make a good mum. im scared that i wont be.

i think its so hard because i have to be have no support from the father. (why does it have to be like this?)

well back to the midwife on friday... yay. xxx