hoopigapi's Journal

It was a nice evening. We are so good together and it was the best nights sleep I've had in a long time. Even so, I still have this nagging feeling that I just can't get close enough to him. But him calling me yesterday let me know that he is thinking of me when he is away from me so that is a good thing.

Those thoughts of "maybe he isn't enjoying it as much as it seems and maybe he really is thinking that it isn't as good as it used to be because of her in his mind" are still in my mind a little, but I am pushing them away.

As my counselor said:If we had just met eachother we would each have had different partners and that would play into our current situation, so if I want this to work out I have to trust that he really wants to be here and has found that spark of love again.

I left him a message on his voicemail today and told him how much I enjoyed being with him last night and how hot I think he is. Hopefully he will appreciate it and it will make him smile and start his day off on a great note.