CrawlnRocks91's Journal

Well I had surgery a week ago now. It's not been very fun. I still have threee more weeks of doing nothen.

I didn't relize how messy i was, untill now. Because i can't clean or do anything and of course i've got nobody to help me. It really sucks haven to be able to do nothing and haven nobody to help you. And haven to still put up with both of them fighten. My stepdad still hasn't found a job so it sucks haven him home all the time.

Life has just been very very hard rite now. But you know what Whith God in my life everything is ok.

I saw the Docter four days after the surgery and he said that everything is looking great. And i found out something i didn't know. That the reason NF peoples have problme with some of there tumors is that there is something in the blood that makes them grow. And when you get one on a bloodvessel like i have it grows like a weed. And the reason nobody wants to do surgery on me is because where the tumor is . It is rite on a major blood vessel . And if they nick it ( like i've said before ) i well never walk again or loose some use of my leges. And i also found out that is why the can just stop growing to because the (whatever is in the blood has said to the brain ok that is enough of there lets go somewhere elese and make a new tumor. So i hope it does that so this tumor well stop growing.

One more thing. The only thing i don't like about the new pump. When i sit down my ribcage rest rite on it.

Today is the 4th and i well be doing NOTHING, because i have no friends to do anything with. There is a rodeo rite down the road so we use to watch the fireworks form the backyard but the trees have grown to big in the neighbors yard. So my mom and stepdad dwell go down to the end of the street where they can watch them. It seems like loud noise's are hurting my ears now. Which sucks because i love loud Harley Davidsons or Hot Rods .But i hardly can't stand to be around them.

Besides that everything is fine. Yeh rite.