back and chest are sooooooooo sore
July 20, 2008 9:37pm
At friends' house today---they want me to stay over night, when I breathe, my back and chest THROB. Have to wait until Tuesday for MRI on …
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OK for this morning--taking day off to be with good friends. Saw chiropractor this am--going back tonite--he may be able to help w/pain
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Psychology student, single, keep on keepin' on, luv dogs, music, tennis, piano
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Kristen70 replied to Jamie510’s discussion post Analgesic in the Endometriosis support group 6:55pm
I heard the same thing as I recall, something about the ingredient methyl silicate? (sp?)...…
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Kristen70 gave LoraRose a Hug 8:02pm
Thanks. I'm with friends for another day or two or three---they are helpinbg me by taking me way from…
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Kristen70 replied to their discussion post my obgyn says no to endo in my bowel in the Endometriosis support group 7:59pm
Could you elaborate further please? Why do you think that? Is the only way to find out if the endo IS…
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Journal Entry for July 13, 2008
July 13, 2008 11:18pm
Things getting overwhelming---mentally sad because I feel like a total fucking LOSER. Sure--I'm almost done with my degree, can't go back to …
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Hey Kristen. Hope all is well for you. Are you feeling better? I liked all of your pictures. Thanks for sharing! Hugs. Lora
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I'm okay right now, how are you doing?
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hope your back gets to feeling better.that ativan is good stuff, my mom takes it and it works for her. Robert-
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I'll be sending prayers, and good energy your way for Monday. Let me know how it goes. Hope today is better for you.
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Happy b-lated birthday. I hope you're feeling better !! Send me a message if you'd like to chat. I'm so sorry that you're going through all this stuff!!!!! BIg hugs and lots of blessings to you.. :) Renee
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Close Anxiety
First, it was depression at 25, then bipolar, then BPD, no diagnosis ever sticking or confirmed--ANXIETY. I fear sucess, failure, friends, family. I have been on many meds, I consider myself an addict in remission. Once I was on top of the world, people loved me without me even thinking about it, now I wonder if anyone loves me. I've turned into a lonely, scared, little girl. I am lost, broken, and want to put myself "back together". Can someone please help me find me again?
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful
- I just try to remember to breathe
- Inderal Not Working
- Helped when the heart won't stop racing/fluttering, but stopped it months ago
- Klonopin Not Working
- tried it, but made me irritable and fat and very spacey and "loopy"
- Lexapro Not Working
- took it and gained a lot of weight
- Massage Working / Worked
- Always helps me calm down by bringing me back to my body.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- FAITH----gotta have it!
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressiondepression has come back since coming back to live at my mom's-gone for a year-been back for 7 months-took me a while to decompensate-finally hit reality after pulling a 'geographic' to try to put a bandaid over problems-put myself right back into a stressful environment, not strong enough and financially stable to be on my own again. Tension. I am the scapegoat. I care so much it is making me ill. I am learning about friendships-setting healthy boundaries-not to be taken advantage of.
Treatments
- Celexa Working / Worked
- took it in 1999, worked, considering again, if Topamax doesn't stabilize my mood soon.
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Made my blood pressure shoot through the roof
- Effexor Not Working
- Shot my blood pressure through the roof
- Electroconvulsive therapy Not Working
- Had 9 in 1999 did not help one bit and ii lost 1 1/2 years of my memory!!!
- Geodon Somewhat Helpful
- made me sleepy more than anything
- Lexapro Not Working
- helped more for my anxiety made me fat and tired
- Meditation Working / Worked
- haven't done this since July 2007
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- only when around people who are this way.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- group therapy helps a lot---I love people!
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- helped until it hit a plateau---stopped it after being on it for years.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- helps--but I rarely ask for help
- Writing Working / Worked
- gets out my feelings when I feel up to it
Open Endometriosis
Pain started at 25, first lap in 1997 showed endometriosis- cauterized, 2nd lap in 1998, 3rd 2005. Endo in cul-de-sac, on top and behind uterus, adhesions, scar tissue. Ovarian drilling 2005, Currently in severe pain, when menses come around each month. Would like to see how other women are dealing. Endometriosis isn't life threatening, but it threatens your way of life" I really hope to get some support and learn how to deal with this. In my case, it has caused a lot of depression.
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Open Stress Management
my sress is mounting and my coping skills are diminishing, please welcome me. I am hoping to learn to feel better and to help myself feel better. My body is racked with pain.
Treatments
- Patience Working / Worked
- try to pray
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- just stopped it because my heart was starting to hurt after being on it for so long.
- Massage Working / Worked
- right now my muscles are so damn sore and when anyone massages them I feel like I am in Heaven!!!! So I know it is stress taking its toll and I want to stop allowing it to slowly begin to kill me
Open Financial Challenges
need avice badly about how to budget what money I do have.
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- Budgeting Too Soon to Tell
- need help
- Cut Up Credit Cards Somewhat Helpful
- cut up 4--YAY for me!
- Earn Money Not Working
- not working because I can't work
- Filing for Bankruptcy Considering
- thinking about it---do not like that idea
Open Codependency
I have to and need to become totally free from codependency between my family and I or I will die an early death. I am sufferring from extremem guilt, shame, anxiety, depression, and overall fristration and stress from this unhealthy problem that has been going on for many, many years. At 37, I am ready to let go. I am carrying burdens of my family of origin that are not mine to carry. I need help and support from others who are going through similar problems as I am with this issue.
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- Celebrate Recovery Working / Worked
- attended when I was recovering from addiction to pills and going to church more
- CoDA Considering
- haven't gone yet
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Considering
- was given this suggestion by a mentor
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- I have even given my dog basically over to my mother for HER happiness.
Open Diverticulitis
Going to my doc this week, then to a gastro to find out why I am having so much pain in my gut. Was diagnosed with IBS, but nothing like the last few months. I was also told I had diverticulitis, but do not know much about that. I took Protonix for a while, but now the nausea has caused me to lose 10 pounds in a week, so not sure what is going on and want to find out. Saw obgyn, said he thought it is colon related....
Treatments
- Tylenol Working / Worked
- works temporarily
Open Crohn's Disease & Ulcerative Colitis
bad abdominal pain off and on for over 10 years. This time around it is bad, wondering what tersts need to be done. I have questioned candida, ulcerative colitis, diverticulitis, I am clueless.
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Too Soon to Tell
Open Celiac Disease
Trying to find the cause(s) of my bad abdominal pain off and on for over 10 years. This time around it is bad, very severe, wondering what tests need to be done. I have questioned candida, ulcerative colitis, diverticulitis, I am clueless.
Treatments
- Dairy-Free Diet Considering
- I drink Starbucks every morning--one of the iced expresso drinks, creamy milky....:(
- Gluten Free Diet Not Working
- I don't eat much wheat, if any, but I am still in pain.
Open Arrhythmias
Type: TachycardiaHeart fluttering, anxiety meds not working well. I have a HIGH C-Reactive protein and am watching my cholesterol and triglycerides, but something just is not right. I was taking Propanolol for a while, helped a little,
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
Of all the groups I have joined I think I need this the most. I am dying a slow death from cigarettes. WHere have you guys been all this time? I found out via another's profile.
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- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- from 8pm one night to 12 noon the next day--my trigger--someone else's unkindness and sarcasm--I cannot control that. So I blew that 2nd attempt to quit
- Smoking Cessation Class Working / Worked
- this is what helped me try a second time--helped a lot
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- didn't do a thing
Open Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)
Diagnoses getting ruled out, doctor at hospital said my IBS is acting up--hasn't been this bad ever, had EGD today trying to get in for a colonoscopy asap.
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- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- will not eat ANY spices
- Bentyl Too Soon to Tell
- ER doc gave this tonight
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