littlebit410427's Journal

 I went to one of my pdocs today for just a med check, or so I thought. He seems to know way too much about me. Very creepy. He said I still wasn't sleeping enough, and I was still going way too fast. He changed my meds once again and asked if I would be willing to go in hospital for faster response. What the f... ! I'm feeling great for the first time since 1999. Who wants to go to hospital when they're feeling good? Not me. I'd rather be high for awhile. For me, as I grow older, the highs are becoming less and less. I'm much more likely to be depressed. What a rude awakening for me. As long as this one lasts, I'm going full speed ahead. This could be one of the last lucid times of my life. I won't give this up without a fight! Too much to do, too little time to do it. So much for being happy.