hlks’s Profile

Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

I was abused, physically and emotionally as a child and then when I was 15 started dating my husband who is verbally and emotionally abusive and, recently, physically abusive.

Treatments

Music Somewhat Helpful

I sing, but often instead of making me feel better it makes me feel worse. If I'm sad, I sing a sad song which just makes me sadder.

Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful

My therapist just listens and agrees with everything I say but doesn't offer much advice or insight. Maybe I need a new one..

Talking Too Soon to Tell

I don't really have anyone outside of my therapist to talk to.. but I'm hoping being here will help

Open Bisexuality

I always had thoughts about other girls, but it was easy to brush off and be "normal" because I liked boys too (like I was supposed to) but then I got married and hubby pushed the issue because he knew I was bi, even though I denied it. Eventually I got a girlfriend and fully accepted it. Now I'm open about it (mostly), though still adjusting.

Open Infidelity

My husband recently cheated on me with my girlfriend. It's complicated. Being bisexual, he was okay with me having a gf, but they both betrayed me.

Treatments

Couples Counseling Considering

We had an appointment, but missed it.

Divorce Considering

My first response was to want a divorce. We're trying to work things out.. but who knows...

Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

I have borderline personality disorder and I was only diagnosed in June

Treatments

Talking Too Soon to Tell

I am hoping that this site will help

Trileptal Working / Worked

I love it. Its a miracle cure for me.. when I can afford it anyway.

Open Bipolar Disorder

I was diagnosed with Bipolar II (two) disorder in April of this year (2008)

Treatments

Trileptal Working / Worked

Seems to be helping with the extreme parts of the moods. No crazy panic attacks during hypomanic states or suicidal attempts during depression.

Wellbutrin Not Working

I was on this a couple of months ago. The side effects were unbearable so I stopped taking it. My doctor agreed that I shouldn't have been on it to begin with. Extreme headaches, dizziness, confusion, inability to think or concentrate, being off balance

Open Panic Attacks

I have borderline personality disorder and bipolar disorder and often have problems with anxiety. I get panic attacks when in social settings or when meeting new people. Basically any time that I feel I'm being judged.

Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depression

Hum. Been depressed since I was a kid. First tried to kill myself when I was 10. Have since been diagnosed with major depressive disorder, bipolar 2, and borderline personality disorder

Treatments

Meditation Somewhat Helpful

It's hard to relax enough to meditate. lol.

Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful

It helps to vent, but it doesn't help me get to the root of my issues.

Wellbutrin Not Working

not on it anymore. Not only did it never work, but the side effects were horrible.

Writing Somewhat Helpful

I keep a diary and I used to have a blog.

Open Codependency

I was abused as a child and I tend to cling to any tiny piece of love or affection that I can get.

Treatments

Music Working / Worked

Pets Working / Worked

Reading Working / Worked

Open Financial Challenges

Treatments

Budgeting Somewhat Helpful

Open Breakups & Divorce

Recently broke up with my girlfriend for cheating.. also on the verge of divorce with my husband who's abusive and also cheated.

Treatments

Couples Counseling Considering

Hoping to find someone soon

Forgiveness Not Working

Trying.. but he's not making it easy.

Leave Not Working

I left once.. had to come back.. not my choice

Love Somewhat Helpful

I love him.. but it's hard to see past what he does to me..

Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell

trying to find a new therapist

Open Lesbian Relationship Challenges

I identify as bisexual, but I seem to have trouble with relationships with women.

Open Vegetarians & Vegans
Type: Vegetarian

I've been vegetarian for 9 years and am attempting a transition into veganism. I have stopped drinking milk and I collect my eggs from a local farm (ensuring they're not causing cruelty to the animals).

Treatments

Raw Food Diet Somewhat Helpful

I did this for a month and, after the first few days, it became easier. I stopped when I went to visit Hubby's parents and didn't want to be too much of a bother. I intend on trying it again soon.

Open Restless Legs Syndrome

Not sure if I have RLS, but I'm joining to find out exactly what it is. I used to tell my husband I had grumpies that lived in my legs. Meaning that I felt the need to kick my legs and it made me grumpy or irritable.

Open Family & Friends of Bipolar

I am bipolar and I'm hoping to help out people in this group and also to see what life is like for those I love.

Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

My husband put me through a lot for about 6 months with abuse, cheating, neglect, and emotional torment... a few people in the infidelity support group told me to look into PTSD because they thought I may have it. I don't know if I do, but I'm here to learn more.

Open Bullying

Severe bullying in school. Although I'm now out of school and an adult, I still deal with it. I guess the bullies never grow up.

Open Insomnia

Bipolar hypomanic episodes keep me up at night. PTSD also keeps me up.

Treatments

Ambien Somewhat Helpful

I have a friend who gives me ambien once in a while because she has insomnia too... makes me tired but i still stay awake for hours until i fall asleep

Counting Sheep Not Working

My sheep die horribly

Lavender Somewhat Helpful

Makes me sleepy but still can't sleep

Open Parenting Toddlers (1-3)

I have a son who is 2 (turned two May 13th)

Treatments

Patience Working / Worked

Positive Reinforcement Working / Worked

Open Healthy Relationships

Trying to have a healthy and functioning relationship while trying to recover from my husband's infidelity.

Treatments

Couples Counseling Considering

Talking Not Working

When I try to talk, he gets angry and becomes irrational.

Writing Somewhat Helpful

It helps me know my feelings.. but doesn't help my marriage

Open Diets & Weight Maintenance

I'm 5'8" and 260lbs

Treatments

Counting Calories Not Working

Curves Not Working

Eat Less Not Working

Physical Exercise Not Working