Journal Entry for March 8, 2008
im so frustrated! everyday i wake up sayin i will exercise and eat healthy not to loose weight but just so i get good nutrition and dont feel guilty …
is feeling Good
well im a 17 yr old girl currently studying at college. i love to travel, well who wants to stick around in rainy england lol! i've always had an interest in dancing just love anything to do with performing arts musicals r amazing i've watched dirty dancing moulin rouge greese and hair sray so many times i just about know the words! yep i'm a pretty big cheese ball! i've had anorexia/ bulimia for 3 years now but im currently trying to recover.
i love being with my mates having a laugh. im always listening to music and i love to dance but at the moment my main hobby would have to be tae kwondo i kno not very girly but i love the sort and you get to travel lots so its retty cool!
im so frustrated! everyday i wake up sayin i will exercise and eat healthy not to loose weight but just so i get good nutrition and dont feel guilty …
well today started really good. i was so happy but then everything went a bit downhill. i ate quite a bit and i hvnt been able 2 purge which upset me …
not feelin so good 2day. my weight is gettin 2 me n i took laxatives n reali wanna purge rite now. thingss r goin really well atm though n i know its …
i'm really feeling good about things atm. i feel as if im nearly there. in reality i guess im not as im still purging but i can deal with my …
well i ended up spending last night in hospital. i had a really bad asthma attack and my bf had 2 drive me there at 1 in morn n had 2 stay ova nite. …
Thinking of you sweetheart :) Love, Shelle xox
Thank you....
omg, i think i am going to go crazy some days, i seriously hate myself so eating but then i do it anyways, because i know it's "good" in the long run!! I am so glad to know someone else is out there fighting the thoughts right now and holding on my a branch to recovery..
It can be hard to face the realities of an eating disorder and fight to give up! Don't do it alone, keep coming here and even try to find a local counselor or specialty clinic in your area. You can do it!
Hey there Just wanted to say thanks for your reply to my post about recovery. Staying positive is something i could really do with!! Im gonna try listing some good points right now :) Take care xx