purplebear's Journal

  im having a good day. ive been reading my book from bondage to bonding.im learning alot of things about myself. i have issues with risk taking.im so scared of getting hurt again that i have built up that emotional wall again.i never thought of myself as a perfectionist,but i guess i am a little bit.in a way i feel as though if i am not a perfect christian that even God will be upset at me.i know in my heart this is not true. i found this quote in this book that fits me pretty well right now "sacrificing love,intimacy and forgivness is the price codependent's pay for staying saafe by staying in charge". isolation is another thing i do too. i have gotten to know alot about the Bible with this one. Im glad i have gotten to know the Bible and God alot better,but i can't stay in isolation forever,plus i know i could help someone with what i have learned. ive had a real good day.no depression and no anxiety. starting to feel better by reading this book and finding this website. God bless everyone out there.