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Journal Entry for March 12, 2008 Mood

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

I didn't sleep well lastnight. I was so angry. I tossed and turned thru the night, too angry to sleep. I went to bed at 1am something and was back up at around 7am. My stomach turned most of yesterday and today. I felt a fibromyalgia flare taking over and around 1pm today decided to laydown and get some rest with a wet rag and a bag of ice. I decided to type up an email to Matthew before going to rest, just incase he didn't feel like talking to me on the phone. I encouraged him to focus on preparing for his transition of getting out of the military instead wasting energy trying to come up with what's wrong with me. I also told him that we HAVE TO go to relationship counseling insead of just giving up after all we've done for eachother, and to let the counselor diagnose the problem and and handle it.

I got out of bed around 3:30 feeling a bit better. I called him 3:50 to check on him, and supprisingly he was in a much better mood. I take it he has read the email...i'll ask him later about it. I didn't go anywhere or doing anything...had no energy to. Good thing I layed down and rested, otherwise, I would probably be suffering greatly right now.

My Silver kitty is so funny, he's been following me all around the house today. If i'm sitting at the computer, he will stay near me and every now and then nudge or rub on me like,"Hi! I'm here for you!" He is so sweet. When I went up to my room he came up too. And when I layed down to rest, he rested too. When I came back down stairs later, he came down too. And as I sit here typing, he has joined me for that too!! If it wasn't for him, I'd feel much worse. He's my little angel!

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Pets are so amazing aren't they? I think you are right, you shouldn't give up on Matthew. I think the two of you are great together.

rwatts
Yes, animals are such a comfort, they just intuitively know when you are hurting and what to do about it. Imagine if they could speak! I call all members of my entourage my heroes, they have saved me from myself many times. If Matthew is actually willing to go to couples counseling, then I think there is a chance of salvaging the relationship. Whatever is best for you, that;s all I am concerned about!

marlena45
my fave cat I got as a little teeny kitten, I call her my little "Guardian Angel" she even licked the tears off my face when I had a bad crying jag and Depressed period now I have my Friend's cat too for 4 years and she went from shy cat to sometimes Bossy cat. Time will help, with BF once he understands what you are going through with Fm for your boyfriend if he gets it he is a keeper, hon, Good luck & lots of love and prayers for both of you!

redsilverfox