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Moving on with my life..... getting to know me and becoming a better, more complete woman. I had gastric bypass surgery in Oct 2004. I lost 130lbs and had a lower trunk lift with fleur de lis, brachioplasty and breast lift and augment. Next is my melting thighs.. lol I have been with my husband since 1999, married in 04. Hes never really opened up or supported me. So I began to find other support through friends and realized I wasn't happy with him. This eventually led to my affair, and I am filing for divorce Jan 08. I am not happy about my choice to have an affair. I am a horrible person for hurting him in this way. But I feel like I was neglected for so long.... sigh. Update: 4/10/08 My married BF and I ended things 8 weeks ago, again. But we have been sticking to it and staying away from each other for the most part (nothing physical, occasional emails and texts). Strange thing happened.... he told her he wants to divorce. Interesting....
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music books going to shows working out
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Thank you for your comment, I admire your decision to walk away. I did notice that some people can be rude out of their pain. However, I believe that no one should stay where they are unhappy. Being unhappy and depressed is not healthy at all. Take the show Snapped for instance, those women see no other way out of their marriages, except getting rid of the spouse. It won't be me. Thank you!
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Saturday was my favorite Holiday!!!! I LOVE Groundhogs day!! We know spring is right around the corner and there is absolutely no obligation involved! It's the perfect holiday! (((HUGS!))) SPRING IS COMING!!!! God Bless! Janelle
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Close Breakups & Divorce
I have been with my husband for over 8 years, only married for over 3. I had a life changing experience in which he didn't support me. I wanted to separate, he didn't want to. I distanced myself so much from him and ended up having an affair for over a year. I am now filing for divorce, he doesn't want it and is making thing hard.
Treatments
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- I have forgiven him for not supporting me, but at sometimes I revert and get angry again, so maybe I haven't totally forgiven. I have forgiven myself for my actions.
- Music Working / Worked
- Music makes the heart bleed. So many songs out there with meaningful lyrics have helped me through all my hard times.
- Pets Working / Worked
- My lil fuzz butts always make me smile and make me feel better when I'm down. I don't know what I would do without them.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Really made me get in touch with my feelings and helped me realize what I need to do.
- Reading Working / Worked
- I read for escape. It's great.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- My mom is my biggest supporter. Even though she was very upset when I told her about the affair, she eventually was able to discuss things with me. And of course my friends are great!
- Talking Working / Worked
- of course venting ALWAYS works!
Close Gastric Bypass Surgery
i had surgery 10/25/04. I lost 130 lbs, then put 10 back on. I have had 2 rounds of plastic surgery and one more to go. I am so happy with my new life, but it has led to the demise of my marriage as well. Looking to talk to anyone else in a similar situation.
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- Dietitian Consult Working / Worked
- I saw a dietitian early on. This was very helpful.
Open Infidelity
I was with my husband since 99, married in 04. Marriage feel apart after gastric bypass and i had an affair with a married man.
Open Plastic Surgery
I lost 130 lbs and had a lower trunk lift with fleur de lis, brachioplasty and breast lift and augment. Now want to get thigh lift!
Open Pre-menstrual Syndrome (PMS)
Diagnosed with PMDD. Severe moodswings and behavior changes prior to period.
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- NuvaRing Working / Worked
- I was on this, going back on. Didn't affect my PMDD one way or the other.
- Zoloft Not Working
- Oh my god - this made me a zombie, made me sh*t my pants, want to sleep....
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- Worked for a few months but stopped working. Switched to Zoloft oh lord that was horrible.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- I take this as needed to take the edge off.
Open Migraine Headaches
I have been getting migraine/tension headaches for years. Usually now only around my cycle.
Treatments
- Caffeine Working / Worked
- Some coffee and acetaminophen works if I catch it early on,
- Fioricet Not Working
- Did not help at all.
- Midrin Working / Worked
- I love midrin. Oh my god the only thing that works... but this shortage of it is killing me!!!
- Relpax Working / Worked
- It used to work for me. Then it was too strong after gastric bypass. Now it just doens't work.
Open Healthy Sex
sex :-)
Open Arthritis
Looking for info for my mom. She had knee replacement and still has alot of pain. Most likely needs revision.
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