Sapphiretyger's Journal

This is supposed to be a happy blog. And yes there is good news. Great news, the news that I have been waiting 6 months to hear. All the days, weeks, months of having to take pill after pill, shot after shot, and experience the horrific side effects that actually could have been worse, were, after all, worth it. I have cleared the Hep C virus from my body, my viral load is undetectable, treatment was a success!

~happy dance for a moment~

My relationship with Rye has turned out to be a delightful source of fun, excitement, romance, friendship, mutual support, and most importantly – LOVE. I now wonder at why I was so concerned and scared about her moving here. She does not feel neglected and I do not feel smothered. We have a nice balance of together time and alone time that keeps us both happy. I am so glad she is here. I am so glad I let down my walls and she was willing to scale what was left of them!

Yesterday was Trisha's birthday. Wooohooo Trish!!! I am so glad she is part of our family! She adds so much love and support to our lives.

Ali had a good trip to Europe and made it back in one piece. She did not dramatically change, but there are subtle signs of maturity and a new-found appreciation for life in the USA that show she did grow from the experience. She rocks! She and Nick seem happier than ever in their relationship and I am so glad that he is part of our family!

Well, then the not so happy news. My grandmother has been diagnosed with VIN 3 of the vagina and labia, severe diaplasia, which to my understanding means pre-cancerous. She already has enough health problems, why this too??? Argh!

My son Will was laid off from a job he was a faithful employee to for 2.5 years. No real reason other than they "hired too many people for the summer." Uhhh, how about he got too many raises and now they don't want to pay him? Grrrr! F-ing corporations!

My son Keith has been ill and having various health issues, not sure yet what it is as the doctor sent him for bloodwork and x rays. To top that off, he dropped his Mac laptop last night, and not sure if that is going to be fixable or replaceable...

Rye too is having job issues. She was pretty much guaranteed of a job when she came here, and now that she is here, they jacked her around, so she too is in the job market.

I can't help but worry, I love them all and want them healthy, happy, and secure.

Still don't know if I passed the licensure exam...

I did number 23 last night. I can't seem to sleep! It used to be, I did my shot and then was asleep within a half hour. One wake up at 4 am or so and then back to sleep for rest of the morning. For some reason, this time, I was up until 1 am, then wide awake at 4 am and have not been able to sleep since. Have been watching movies and trying to relax, but I just can't!

Lots on my mind, but what else is new? My legs can't seem to stop tensing up when I lay down and I can't get comfortable. So here I sit, on the computer, at 6 am, thinking "what the hell???"

I am so glad to be at the end of this treatment road...yet, I kind of wonder how it's going to be not to be in the routine anymore. The "take two in the morning and two at night, one shot a week, and go to the lab once a month" habit. How WILL I fill my time? Lol, I think I will figure it out!