TheDivineMsM's Journal

I have a negative balance in my bank account. Tony said he was going to give me the money for the mortgage late.

I need toilet paper and I can't buy any because there is no money in my checking account.

Yesterday, my stbx tells me not to call him every day. Well I have to call him because I need the money!

He has over 30 thousand in his bank account. he needs the money to buy this friehoffer (spelling?) route. Says he is trying not to spend any more money because he needs a certain amount to put down on it.

I am struggling here! I am not working right now, and I have to depend on my inlaws, which I hate. My sister in law is a bitch and my brother in law really hurt my feelings the other day. I can't stand either one of them.  The only one I like is my mother in law.

I really need a prayer...from anyone and everyone

I wish I could move but I am stuck here.  

My brother in law really layed it into me and I am so hurt. I called his house this morning, he answered and I hung up. I didn't want to talk to him. Just wanted to leave a message to him on how I felt.

I know that if I speak to him directly he will only say more hurtful things. I am thinking I will write him a letter. I feel that our issues have not been resolved. I couldn't sleep last night or eat.

This morning all I could think about were the hurtful words my brother in law and sister in law spoke to me. It plays in my head like a broken record.

I know I am a good mom. I live alone with two of my children. They have 3 adults living in their home to take care of 3 kids. That includes my mother in law.

They come accross as the perfect parents who could do no wrong. My brother in law told me that Tony should have my kids. That cut me like a knife.

He is such an asshole. My sister in law is no better.

Got into an argument with my inlaws today. My brother in law and sister in law feel I am not a good mother and that i am not affectionate towards my kids.

My stbx was upset and told me that they shouldn't talk because my brother in law sleeps all day and doesn't even watch the kids, my sister in law and mother inlaw does. He said that my brother in law also puts his kids down alot and that it is all BS and that his sister is NOT the perfect mom.

He told me that he was getting off the phone to call them to tell them where to go.

I am shocked!!