I'm writing this in an effort to regain some composure...I get sad a lot. I'm not the depressed type, and I have had a pretty good outlook on things, considering...but I feel like I am being shadowed by the sadness. When I have every reason to smile, I just feel the melancholy. I don't know what to do to get out of it...I WONT LET THIS GET ME! I am stronger than the darkness...I've come through so much...I just need to get over the hump. I'm tired of being sick. I'm tired period. I wish that there was some way of getting some *real* sleep. Where I don't wake up, thinking that he's coming. What's that prayer? Lord grant me the serenity? Here's to hoping...