fallenangelneedswings’s Profile

Open Bipolar Disorder

I was diagnosed as bipolar my second time being hospitalized for severve depression among other things. it changed my life to say the least. It gave me an explanation to my mood swings but no control over my emotions. I thought the meds would 'cure' me but I have relapsed many times and been hospitalized 3 times since.

Treatments

Abilify Not Working

it had no effect at all on me

Depakote Not Working

the dose given to me was to high and it nearly killed me.

Group Therapy Working / Worked

I used this in teh hospital. I found it very helpful.

Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

I have been emotionally abused most of my life and physically abused part of it. The abuse has led me to a negative image of myself and the world in general. that's something I need to work on. I never dealt with any of the issues surrounding either topic, so it's festered inside me for years.

Open Sexual Abuse

I was raped July 9,2005. Even though it's been almost 2 years the after effects still hit hard. I still have nightmares. I don't know how to deal with the situation and put it behind me. Read my journal and you see what i mean by after effects still hitting home!

Open Self-Injury

I started cutting myself 4 years ago. I've had it under control for a few months now, or so I thought. The urge have gotten so bad lately. I'm afraid of a realpse.

Treatments

Hospitalization Not Working

I went 5 times. It never really helped. I learned a lot and met a lot of nice supportive people, but it never really helped.

Open Rape

I was raped almost 2 years ago now by a man I trusted. I called him my dad, although he wasn't. I wanted to b part of a family and he wanted more than a daughter. He played on my emotions and weaknesses to get what he wanted. He destroyed everything I had. I haven't been able to move on past that night, not even now. It kills me inside.