Thursday, February 28, 2008
February 28, 2008 7:52pm
I was finally able to turn a corner a few days ago. I don't know where the opening occured - I suppose it doesn't matter. I am …
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"The opposite of loneliness is not togetherness... it is intimacy".
February 25, 2008 6:34am
The opposite of lonliness, its not togetherness. It's intimacy".
"If we must lose a wife or husband when we live to our highest …
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Journal Entry for February 25, 2008
February 25, 2008 2:40am
Today is one of those days. Standing squarely in the center of all my fears realized, the urge to contact him is overwhelming. Fueled by rage …
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Journal Entry for February 18, 2008
February 18, 2008 4:13am
The spiritual journey. I sit here wondering how to stop or interrupt the cycles of pain I have encountered in this life from those obvious ones …
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Journal Entry for February 10, 2008
February 10, 2008 12:59am
Almost 4 months now - NC. The acute pain is less - the internal screaming and wrenching of every organ subsiding somewhat. But the …
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Close Infidelity
I was the "OW" - sad and remorseful. Trying to find healing and peace.
Treatments
- Leave Too Soon to Tell
- Experiencing unimaginable grief; unsurpassed feelings of loss and despair.
Close Breakups & Divorce
At the end of a long term relationship. Although we were not married - actually, I was his 10 year love affair, nonetheless a very painful, devastating experience. He has chosen to stay in his marriage, seek counseling, and try to give the longer-term marriage a chance to work. We have agreed to end all communication and contact to give the marriage its only real chance - one without my presence. Seeking healing and internal peace from the DS here.
Treatments
- Forgiveness Somewhat Helpful
- Trying to forgive myself. Trying to forgive him. I only feel less devastation through understanding and forgiveness.
- Leave Too Soon to Tell
- Gut-wrenching... feels like a new organ is being carved from my body on a daily basis. Feelings of despair and not always wanting to remain here among the living are common.
- Reading Working / Worked
- Distracts me - gives me new information to assimilate into this experience.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- This is what keeps going. They don't always understand this... but they know me, love me and don't judge me. They do not invalidate my pain simply because it is "self-inflicted".
- Support Groups Somewhat Helpful
- The infidelity discussion are extremely helpful and though provoking. I am learning more about myself through others' experiences of betrayal, loss, and pain. Wish I had known about this site 10 years ago... before I jumped into the icy waters.
- Time Working / Worked
- They say time heals all pain... I say it makes it bearable. I am better now than 6 weeks ago. I no longer spend hours on the closet floor sobbing.
