Well its wed. only have 2 days left before the love of my life is flying across country. i am so worried about him and the girls. i dont like them flying, more less going into mexico. he is from acapulco, so he knows all there is to know about it but still it bothers me. I have a very high level of stress, anxiety and depression going on, well i dont think it ever went anywhere, was just covered by meds. I just want to cry till I cant anymore. It is so lonely here. No job,money,no drivers permit. Kinda hard to do anything. May go for walk but cant get very far due to my fibromyalgia and pain. dammit why is it so hard just to live now? I try to go forward but i keep going back to the pit of despair. my soul is longing to be free again and happy. Just to be released from all the pain and depression. i try so hard to be strong but just cant seem to get there. im a sheep that wandered away from the herd and is lost in the pit of despair..until next time, adios..blessings..