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didnt sleep alot but a couple hours or so, but feeling tinnie wennie bit better. thank you God and my ds friends..much LOVE
WELL IM 32, MALE IN RELATIONSHIP WITH MY LIFE PARTNER OF 5 YEARS JULY 6, '08. HE IS WONDERFUL AND A GOD SEND TOO ME IN EVERY WAY. My partner is from Acapulco, Mexico. He has 2 girls and I have kinda took them under my wing too and they are totally cool with our relationship. I think of them as my girls too.I have been struck with FIBROMYALGIA and DEGENERATIVE DISC DISEASE IN MY NECK AND BACK since may of 2005. I ALSO HAVE BONE SPURS IN MY NECK AND MY CERVICAL SPINE IS CURVED TO THE RIGHT. MAY NEED SURGERY SOON. WAS TOLD I NEED A FUSION AT THE C5, C6 LEVEL...WHAT ELSE CAN GO WRONG WITH MY YOUNG BODY, I THINK QUIETLY. THIS JUNE 03. 2008. also was told i have alot of OSTEOPOROSIS for my age. also said i SEEMED TO HAVE A very suicidal NATURE and should be watched carefully..duhh. WELL I HAVE TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE 4 TIMES IN THE PAST. FROM AGES 19-26. DRUGS AND ALCOHOL ARE EVIL DOINGS OF THE DEVIL FOR SURE. EXCEPT FOR MEDICINAL MARIJUANA IN MY OP. I COULD USE A JOINT DAILY FOR THIS HORRIBLE PAIN IM IN. I JUST PRAY MAYBE NOW I WILL GET THE HELP I NEED. I STAY IN AWFUL PAIN ALL THE FREAKIN TIME AND IM SO TIRED OF IT.. I'M HAVING A REAL HARD TIME TRYING TO COPE WITH THE RELENTLESS PAIN DAY IN, DAY OUT. NOT TOO MENTION THE SLEEP DISORDER. MY BIPOLAR 1 SENDS ME ON A RIDE UP AND DOWN FROM TIME TO TIME. JUST A MESS AINT I, BUT I ALWAYS SEE SOMEONE ELSE IN WORSE SHAPE. FEEL LUCKY COMPARED TO SOME PEOPLE. MY HEART GOES OUT TO THEM. I WILL AND AM GONNA FIGHT THIS ILLNESSSSSS WITH ALL I GOT. BUT GOD HAS A PLAN FOR ME. I FEEL AS GOD WANTS ME TO HELP AS MANY PEOPLE AS I CAN WITH ILLNESSESS TO COME TO KNOW HIM AND HIS LOVE, AND HOW HE CAN AND WILL CHANGE THEIR LIVES. THANK GOD. FOR MY FAMILY, they have helped me alot. MY MOM HAS FIBROMYALGIA ALSO. its a daily struggle. i have been out of work since oct 06. have been denied for disability 2x and now waiting to see JUDGE for hearing. could take up too 4 years or more. but im just taking things one day at a time. GOD WILL SEE ME TROUGH. HAVE FAITH AND TRUST IN HIM...PRAISE HIM. HE WILL NOT LET ME OR YOU DOWN. GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU...TROUGH HIM, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE. HUGS TO ALL..
TRYING TO HOLD ON, WITH THE LITTLE HOPE LEFT IN ME. MY FIGHT IS ABOUT GONE BUT I AINT GIVING UP YET. I HAVE THESE ILLNESSES THEY DONT HAVE ME, AT LEAST NOT YET. SURE I HAVE BAD DAYS, AND CANT BE STRONG ALL THE TIME, BUT I AM GOING TO TRY ALL I CAN TO SMILE TROUGH THE TEARS AND PAIN. THIS PAIN AND DEPRESSION IS TAKING OVER, AND I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE...BUT I AM TAKING IT ONE DAY AT A TIME. I DIG UP THE FIGHT EVERYDAY FROM DEEP INSIDE AND GET GOING, AS BEST I CAN. ONE DAY I PRAY I WILL GET MEDICAID AND MY SSDI, SO I CAN AFFORD NEW MEDS AND SOME EPIDURALS FOR THE PAIN. I CAN ONLY HOPE AND PRAY TO MY HEAVENLY FATHER..BLESS ALL OF YOU GOOD PEOPLE ON THIS SITE. LETS HELP EACH, AND IN TURN HELP OURSELVES. BLESSED BE TO THEE........
hurtsobad gave jenfer2 a Hug 11:34am
First you need a big hug, 2nd thank you for the info on cervical fusion. I dont know what to do. since…
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Thank you for your message, and you are so right. I would never do that again..promise you that..kevin…
hurtsobad replied to kindercrazed’s discussion post sad confession in the Fibromyalgia support group 10:25am
no need to apologize dear. alot of people have a very hard time quitting. i smoke and have for 16 years.…
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hurtsobad replied to Annabeth’s discussion post Fibro and Constipation? in the Fibromyalgia support group 10:14am
well sweetie, I think my problem is caused by all the meds I take. also, i need more fiber in my diet.…
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LOL!!!!!!!!!!!YOUR A RIOT!!…
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i go every 3 months for methadone and morphine. guess it depends on the doctor..i just told my doc i…
hurtsobad commented on Maryca’s journal entry Journal Entry for July 8, 2008 9:12am
I know what you mean. its either i sleep 13 hours or 4-5 hours..unless i take sleeping meds and the next…
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didnt sleep alot but a couple hours or so, but feeling tinnie wennie bit...…
July 8, 2008 2:13am
I TRIED TO BE STRONG FOR OTHERS BUT I JUST CANT RIGHT NOW...I AM ALL MESSED UP MYSELF. I NEED GODS BLESSINGS BAD. I HAVE TO TAKE A BREAK FOR …
July 6, 2008 11:38am
FEELING OK TODAY. GOD HAS ALLOWED ME ANOTHER DAY. AMEN... THANK YOU JESUS. I AM COMING TO TERMS WITH ALOT OF THINGS IN MY …
July 4, 2008 5:15pm
Feel better somewhat today. My family made it to mexico safely. Thank God. I have a week to do some soul searching. to put …
July 4, 2008 12:04am
O HEAVENLY FATHER, PLEASE PROTECT MY IVAN, TAKEISHA,LIZ FRON HARM AND GET THEM SAFELY TO ACAPULCO. BLESS THEM AND LAY YOUR LOVING HANDS UPON …
July 2, 2008 8:58am
Well its wed. only have 2 days left before the love of my life is flying across country. i am so worried about him and the girls. i …
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im 32 male have had fms and degenerative disc disease since may 2005. had to quit job oct 2006. Have applied for disability, still waiting. i've been turned down twice as of today, may 11, 2007 and im in total shock and so depressed i dont know what im gonna do. someone please pray for all of us, that we can make it daily
well me and b/f have had a usual rocky ups and downs. but he showed me a true test of love and caring this weekend1-19-08===. he came 4 hours to see me at my moms in VA, cause i couldnt get back home due to issues. I now know he really loves me and cares, and its the best feeling in the world
i was diagnosed in may 05 of having ddd,cervical and lumbar, and also fibromyalgia. i stay in chronic pain all the time. i eventually had to quit my job in oct 06 due to the pain and fatigue,medication side effects and the STRESS. having alot of prob's with c4,5,6, and now having alot of back pain starting in upper back. so who knows whats going on now. with no insurance and denied disability 2x and medicaid, i cant afford mri's and xrays. barely can afford dr visit and the 7 meds im on.
