back for a bit
September 7, 2008 12:31am
My monitor died and where I work they banned/blocked most of the net. I have dial up which is very slow and may try the library to stay connected …
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sadmale’s Profile
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sadmale
is feeling Bad
Trying to catch up with my friends here.
Recently: 5 hugs given, 3 hugs received more …
About Me
Single man. Early 40's. In a technical field. Never married but want to be. Before love I need to discover real intimacy. Buried my feelings for most of the last 20 years or so. Now they are flooding out. Drowning in emotions, a few good most very bad. Dating scene has been poor because I worked too much and felt I was not in touch with myself and society. Although I feel I have so much to offer someone special I feel I am slowly dying on the inside and feel like I am already gone. Times have changed drastically and I feel my value as a man in this world is nothing. It is crushing me. My friends say I am attractive, very nice and creative but I know there is much self hate and doubt in me. I am a little spiritual but not very religious. Trying hard to be happy.
Interests
Many hobbies. They were/are what I used to hide myself and to not think about life. Bicycling, rollerblading, walking, hiking, XCsking, snowboarding, fishing, kayaking, snowshoeing, guitars, reading, gardening. So much more
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Journal
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Trying group therapy
July 15, 2008 11:20am
Right now I am not seeing a regular therapist. The last one did not work out. Friends, family, spiritual group, volunteering and hobbies are …
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might have to talk
June 29, 2008 10:26pm
Might need a one on one of some sort with you guys (friends). I kind of need to talk.
Hope you all are well.
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new therapist bad outcome
June 24, 2008 1:49pm
Well I just got done with my second visit with my new therapist and she said she does not think she can help me. It seemed at our first session that …
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new therapist
May 28, 2008 4:07pm
I will be seeing a new therapist in two weeks. Hoping for something good. There is something very wrong with me and trying to figure it …
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Hugbook
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i count myself lucky that all i have is a temporary rash :)
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Thanks for the hug and your kind support. I appreciate your compassion and shared kindness. Thoughts for better days ahead are with you also.
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I’m With You
Hey, guy. Hope you're finding satisfaction in life, it sure sounds like you're trying.
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I'm thinking of you. Hope you're doing well!
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Support Groups
Close Depression
I've been depressed for years but it recently got much worse after a death in the family. Also midlife issues are compounding the problem.
Treatments
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Writing Too Soon to Tell
- Writing like mad when I feel like I am losing my mind or cannot talk it out.
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Snapshot
Recently …
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- 3 hugs received
- 1 discussion post
- 1 advice reply
- 1 journal comment
