ShawnC32's Journal

Today I translated my MIL med doc appt and did the pharmacy run. She thinks she got shorted on scrips and blames me when the dr and I explained what was going on and asked if she had questions. No. Then 4 hours later starts whining, everything was closed by then and since it is not an emergency there is no one to call.

I called the p-doc my m-doc recomended but he hasnt called back yet.

My lovely wife (bitch) has always refused to read anything no matter how short on bipolar even though I, her mother and a large percentage of her family are bp.But she can manage to read The Secret and lecture me from it.

She is trying to get involved in my treatment again and is not pressuring me to work, but is sure I know what kinda bills are due and how lil we have.She knows I will end up working from guilt.

I get tired of being manipulated. She told me the other day she only loves me as a person but if I fall back in love with her she is sure she will fall back 9in love with me. Wrong move, I automatically put up every wall I have with her. She doesnt quite understand but I have an aspect that is VERY emotionally distant to everything.I just hide in myself until she leaves.

I know I'm rambling a bit so I will be silent now