happy4me's Journal

I hate going through the ups and downs. I still can't believe he left me. How can someone just leave after so many years. Didn't even try. Just ran off to the nearest little girl. Why does he have to say all thos emean things. He hasn't even talk to the kids. I've had to do everything. One day he's nice, then I hear nothing for days. I'm so confused and I want him back. I want my life back.  We had so many plans and now they are all gone. Everything we didn't do becuse we waited for the kids to grow up he has now done with her. And I know she got the ring. My dream ring I have wanted for 16 years. I know he gave it to her. He says that she picked it out for me because we like the same things. But I've never seen it. Plus I wouldn't want to wear something his slut picked out. But it was the exact ring I have been wanting. 1 1/2 carat 3 diamond white gold ring.  I'll die if he gave it to her. Let me happy just for a while. Let me meet someone who I can trust. Turn back time so I can prevent everything from happening. I just want all the pain to stop!!!!!!