ArtFellaMemphis's Journal

Well, I had a great weekend.  It was nice here in Memphis over the weekend.  I am off on Sunday, and had a nice brunch with friends on a patio, where I had a cup of very tame chicken gumbo, with lots of rice and a few of my friends french fries. Monday, I went to the Gym, cleaned my car, complete with Armor-All (that always gives me a sense of satisfaction) and took my dogs to the park, where I actually fell asleep in the sun on a picnic table.  I really needed that day.  It was one of those days you keep stored in your memory for trying times ahead.

!!Stress!!

The job is very demanding. Being an art dealer in a climate of finacial uncertainty is a tough one.  When folks can't afford a house payment, it's hard to buy items of luxury. but, I'm sure things will pick up soon. Some friends are being purposfully dramatic, why, I do not know.

I am sure I did something, said something, or implied something wrong.  But, it's hard to know when you break the rules, if you don't know what the rules are. Or, if those rules change at someone elses will.  I suppose it's just time to take myself out of that game.  Family is acting up, my 78 y/o Mom went to the hospital for swollen feet. She is a bad diabetic. So stress for me is just anywhere I am.  We all know what stress does to our conditions. It seems as if all my stress goes to my belly.  Hard as it is, I am trying to block out as much turmoil as possible. I think, if I am honest with myself, that is one reason my body shut down on me. "just let it go."

This is where the serenity prayer is worth the particle board it's shelacked to. 

The workouts are helping on many fronts. Body is fuctioning better, as is my mind. I would highly reccomend doing some sort of activity for anyone with this disorder-whatever your body accepts and go from there.

However, I still have pain.  It is almost random. My last full attack came when I rushed too much fiber. So now, I am doing low residue and taking Calcium and Selinium supplements  (which gives me a loose stool) so no straining.  I feel it's important to allow everything heal at it's own pace.  I'll start fiber again slowly, and when my body tells me the time is right.

I am now trying the muscle relaxer "soma" for pain. It works very well for me.  My doc explained it has a slight seditive in it, so, I suppose it calms the nerves, while also working on the pain.  Perfect for this nervous nellie. 

Peace!

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