JamiGirl's Journal

(I would like to thank you all for your help as to this. OK, So

your
a Christian and your saved. Q: Is it a sin to change your

gender ?)

YES and NO to being a sin in changing your gender.
If you are truly a G.I.D child of His then how could you be

changing genders in His eyes ?

Ok is it sin ?
Well that can be answered so easy but it may take time and

effort on "our" part to find this out.

The reason ?
Simple because for some it may be sin and for some it may not

be sin.
Just as to most a simple chocolate bar is a nice treat but to

some a simple chocolate bar could be life threatening and there

for be a sin for this person.

What is sin?
Sin is simply something that we know that we are not to do.
So if our Loving Lord God has shown you that that a simple

chocolate bar is no good and do not eat it and you do well that

simple little chocolate treat just became sin for this person.

It is the same for transition.
Some may be truly called to transition and some may not and

it is not our choice to make BUT it is our choice to SEEK God

the very Creator who formed us in our mothers womb.

Some times as in my case once I went to God and admited that

I like being jami or girl and I admitted to Him that I loved

being jami and I hated being jim well I was flooded with peace

and I just knew it was going to be ok.

Now God had other plans for me then to just let me start

hormones and He made it very clear that the doors were

closed but also let me know it was ok and Jami was ok.

I know because I tried to open a few doors down the road and

it cost me my savings twice. (slow learner)

He turned me inside out and back again and then opened the

door to transition.
I still walked the first 14 months fighting this moral issue.

I knew I had peace and God opened the door but with all of the

reliegion and uneducated Christians putting in all of "their"

beliefs well I was confused and struggled even though I knew

He opened the door.

One day I just had all I could take and I was tired of crying

and praying and pleeding for my very life (jami).

So I made up my mind I was going to find out for sure and

trust His answer once and for all.
So I took "jami" to the alter or His feet.
I had made up my mind that I would leave her there if He

asked and that would be the last time any one would see Jami

Maree.

Was this easy! NO not in any way.
Was I scared ? More then you can inmagine because I knew

for me Jami was my best and yet in a short time from now I

could learn that Jami dies right there and stays dead or She

will be given her life to live.

I prayed and then I started. I was crying so hard I that

breathing was a choir.
I could hardly even speak but He led me in this in three parts.

First I prayed and I plead for my very life. I wanted to leave

a legacy and more then a few jornals and a few pieces of art

work.

I wanted to make my mark in this world and I want to just

serve my God and worship Him freely.
I wanted God to take a chance and to believe in me Jami a

"girl".

This went on for a time and then I felt Him even stronger

and I changed my prayer.

I remember saying to Him that this was only up to three

people and NO ONE ELSE.
I said it was up to Jami and jim and Him!
He flooded me with so much peace and I just knew I was

wrapped up in His loving arms.

So I prayed and reminded God how jim hated his very life and

cursed the day for waking up.
I reminded Him how jim had freely given up his life and

prayed to God many times in Jamies behalf that this was her

life and I reminded Him what He had shown me as He turned

me inside out and back again.

Then I turned the prayer to Him.
I told Him that no matter what He had the last word and His

choice was the one that would happen or be honord no matter

what.

This went on and I prayed for my life and just for Him to

truly believe in Jami a girl and to believe in me and to love

me and to use me and so on.

I then prayed in tongues for a while and then I just knew it

was done.
I then knew I needed to just go to the bathroom and get

cleaned up. Crying reeks havic on the face !

Well He chose the time to answer me. I was sitting on the

potty and He got my attention.
I knew that I knew it was "my" God and His voice was so soft

yet strong and so gentle but firm and so Loving and kind but

so athoritive as well.

Then He spoke five words to me that just set me totaly free.

Just five little words.
(Jami I believe in "YOU")

I have not been the same since and He has protected jami

over and over again.

Now there is still more to it then this.
here is the heart of the indivigial who wants to transition?

What are the motives of the heart in this.
(((( GOD ALWAYS LOOKS TO THE HEART ))))

See as jim I could never make it even in God through Christ

Jesus. This was no fault of God or Christ Jesus but just jim's

failure to trust and stand.
A TORMENTED SOLE can never stand their ground.

For me pre hormones I lived a mental case of inballenced

hormones and for 43 years I lived in constant torment.

My brain is wired for one circut and my body with another.

The out come ? simple A SHORT CIRCUT reeked havic in

this complex machine and would not ever operate in the

manner a machine of this complexity should run.

Change the brain to match the body ?
Well sure God can do all things.
So why has He yet to let doctors fix the brain of the mentaly

retarded? Or the mentaly ill and where they even do such

barbarik things as electric shock ?

Why do uneducated Christians lable G.i.d as sin and yet their

mentaly ill child is a blessing or an atack from the enemy and

seek God for healing?

No the brain is not easy to figure out and remember we do not

even use half of it. We just simply do not know how to tap

into the bigest part of our brains.

So we match the body to the brain or the main comunicator.

Destroy the brain and you have a vegtible. A body has to

have the brain for every little function or it goes off line and

trouble forms.

So perhaps it is easier to say that Transition may be sin for

some and salvation to others.
I never knew God in 43 years Like I do in less then 2 years as

a pre op Transsexual  (18 months).

Why is this? Why do I know Gods love now and why am I

able to see Him now and why am I able to fall in love with

Him over and over again?

Why do I have a boldness now for Christ and stick up for

what is right now?
Why can I stand against things that used to make me fall now

since hormones?

SIMPLE....I am a whole person now. I am alive for the first

time and God has set me free.
God opened the door to hormones and HE opened the eyes of

my heart unto Him.

I now live with a passion for Him and I constantly am

seeking Him to remove more and more of me and fill me with

Him.

I have learned that nothing matters other then Him.
I have learned that it is all about Him and never ever us no

matter what.

I have learned that He will make us great but only so HE can

be seen even greater through you.
It is all about the heart....

So I believe even something as to transition or not is all about

the heart.
I was willing to lose my life for Him and HE gave it back to

me and it is the best or better then I could ever have dreamed

of.

IF YOU TRULY want to know if it is sin for you then

SIMPLY be willing to lose it for Him and seek Him and find

out for your self.

As to the "UNEDUCATED" Christians who make their

reasoning from religion and tradition  I say where is your

proof.

Prove that I am in sin.
Lay out your scriptures and we both will pray and then we

will together seek out the truth in God through Christ and we

HAVE got to dig deep and find out what was really being said

by the scriptures you use to condem me.

I live in His grace and even though I don't desreve this grace

He is so merciful and loving and forgiving that it is His own

nature of Love that still gives me this grace of His.

People are SIMPLY afraid of CHANGE and scared of the

unknown or something new that may question their beliefs

limited by THEIR upbringing and it all leeds from

"TRADITION AND RELIGION" which will kill you every

single time.

So for me to transition is a salvation onto my very sole and

then for some one else it may just be the thing that gets

between them and God.

One last thought.
There has been so much advanced learning of Transexuals

brains and yet this does not matter.
It has been proved that the gay male has the same exact

brain structure of a hetrosexual man and yet the male to

female transexual has the same brain structure of a female

even before a single hormone is added.

The problem is not knowing of things it is just history

repeating itself once again.
Just like you still have scientice with all their wisdom trying

to prove we all became from apes or the big boom.

God has proven and showed us clearly He is real and yet

there is so many who simply make their life fighting this and

trying to prove Him wrong.

It is the same in the G.i.d relm as well.
There are far to many "uneducated" people throwing out what

is cleary seen for their religious and traditional beliefs and

devoting their life to killing us or to prove we are nothing but

decieved lost discusting forms of life.

Money and power talk and so WE JUST TRUST IN HIM

WHOLE HEARTED.
We have got to trust in Chirst totaly with out reason or

question and then we will find our life.

Our life is to uplift Him and to allow HIS glory to shine

bright to all that are in each of our little worlds.
In everythng ALL GLORY IS HIS and not ours.
This is the way it is to be.

So it may be a Columbus or a Smith Wiggleworth or a Billy

Gram or it may be a T.S but one thing is always there and

this is uneducated people trying to convince and prove why

you are wrong and can not do something which you know that

you know that the very God of all gods and the Creator of life

has told you YES you can!

God never forces us to chose one way or another and waits as

long as it takes for us to seek Him on this and then He turns

you inside out and back and when he is done dealing with

what He wanted to deal with when He wanted to deal with it

well you know who you are.

Then we can become free from all gender challenges and

become one in Christ Jesus.

It is not an easy life to transition and it is full of pit falls and

road blocks and can take your life in some way or another but

we can be free and walk in His glory and grace as well.

The bottom line would be this....
What is more important to you in life?
If it is anything less then Christ Jesus and the Father then be

prepared to lose it one way or another.

So if you hold your transition above God and this means do it

your own way and not interested in what God says for you

then if you are a true child of the Most High God then you

will lose the very thing you cling to but if YOU will be

willing to let go and lose your life to find Him He will give

you the best life you could ever dream of and for me it is

simply being
"His" little jami girl / jami maree and for you it is what?

Not Sure? Well only you can keep you from knowing.
Purpose your heart to find out and let nothing stop you from

finding what he thinks about anything in your life including

transition.

Fix your eyes and hearts and minds on Him and you will then

walk in His perfict peace.

Remember the amount or effort you use to seek Him is the

exact amount He will allow you to find in Him.
How much of His heart do you truly want or are WILLING

TO GO AFTER????

It is your choice and NOT Gods choice to become close with

Him. It is His desire but not His duty.

God said if our fathers in the natural give us good things

when we ask for them then how much more would our

Heavenly Father give to us?

Why have I said all of this? For one reason.
I was told this in an answer in prayer one day.
We need (I) to consentrate on seeking HIM and let Him

worry about the transition.

I did not say dont do anything to better yourself in transition

nor did I say do not pray and seek Him but what I said was

THIS.

WHERE IS all of your time and heart at ?
Work to get closer to God and go after His very own heart

and you will find He will do so much more for you then you

can inmagine.

The more I draw closer to God the more I fall in love with

Him and the more I become me (jami "girl").
GO FIGURE !!!

So how can this be sin for me?
God is healing me in His way and yes He is using modern

medicine too but not limiting it to this.

What about altimers? What about the million other things

that just happen to a human brain and body?
So why do they want to prove T.s is sin? Because it means

that they dont understand as much as they think they do and

their sole or being has been preprogramed by religion and lack

of truly understanding God and His ways and all humanity

and life.

And just another way for "our" enemy the devil to reak havic

in His people.
Seperation and disorder in a house will not stand.

Who do you think is behind all of this Proving transexuals are

a sin unto the Creator the most High god any way?

Who do you think is blinding the minds and hearts of those

who fight against us?

Who do you think started the big thing with modern day

christian worship music ?

My stars in heaven they fought that any music not like

THEIR tase and limited thinking was of the devil.
(giggles) wont they be surprised when third day or point of

grace sets up and has a jamb session of praise to the Father in

the home next to theirs in Heaven?!?! ( LOLOL) You know

what I mean.

I can hardly contain the thought of those fellow brothers and

sisters eyes of those who condemed me for my transition as

Jesus says well done my faithful servant.
I pray so hard that on that day that Jesus will just walk up

and give me a big hug and say Tahnk You JAMI for believing

in me.

Well this is my 2 cents worth.
Have the most blessed of lives you could ever dream of in

christ Jesus.
Love always
"His" jami girl / jami maree