Godspreciouschild’s Profile
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Godspreciouschild
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About Me
My faith in Christ is my greatest strength, without it I am hopeless. I am in recovery for PTSD/Childhood abuse, alcohol/drugs (self-medicated for years) and various other life insanities. I am a single mother of the greatest three kids ever. Two grown boys and one sweet little girl. My life has been full of trials and tribulations and I have continued struggles trying to hold on to my faith in Christ during the times of loneliness/selfdoubt/anxiety/panic attacks/depression and even the better times. I am looking to find friends that can relate to my struggles, friends who will encourage me and I them to draw strength from Christ, to stay connected (I tend to isolate when hurting and it's not good). My sons are out of my home and I miss them greatly tho they are doing great (empty nest whatever). I struggle with being a good single parent to my daughter - PTSD from own child trauma makes me hypervigilant in protecting her and that is an immense issue on it's own! I am in a 12 step recovery program from years of self medicating, I am in an intense Trauma Recovery Support group. My faith in Christ defines me, I am devout to my beliefs in Christ tho I am no saint. I am forgiven and a child of God and He loves me, I just struggle with my own doubts and fears and am working on my trust in Him. My weakness does not take away from who Christ is and I have to remind myself that my emotions and feelings and thoughts doesn't change God, He is and always will be God.
Interests
Growing in my faith in Christ, My children, My Church, overcoming the trauma's in my life and finding ways to use my experiences someday to help others (when I am strong and able to), learning new things whether some fun thing on the computer or dirtbike riding, working out at the gym, studying in the word, reading, walking in the woods and being close to God, finding others who are struggling as I am and helping each other. My interests are growing and changing as I grow and change.
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Support Groups
Close Abstinence & Celibacy
I am a divorced mother of three. I am abstinant now because it's my faith in Christ but I also want to encourage those who are for whatever reason. I got divorced young and was in and out of relationships that were never centered on Christ, often abusive, and most definitely w/out respect for me. We ruin our spirits when we give ourselves away to someone other then our spouse. It takes away from the beauty of love and commitment and what it's meant to be. We degrade ourselves.
Treatments
- Abstinence Somewhat Helpful
- I struggle daily with lonelines, with wanting to be loved, but thru past experiences I know that a man that truly loves and respects me will wait. Unfortunately he is rare. I am rebuilding my faith in Christ, self respect, dignity, and to give into physical desires without the commitment and love would be to destroy all I am working toward.
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked
- NOT easy, but spiritually incredible.
Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
I am a lifetime survivor of abuse (all kinds) which began in early childhood. Because this was my norm growing up I was drawn to abusive men in adulthood. I am in intense pstd/trauma recovery group therapy, 12 step recovery program, rebuilding a faith in God, and discovering who I was meant to be. I deal with alot of panic/anxiety/fear/distrust/anger - so much pain and I work hard to overcome those things. I am a work in progress and am looking for others who can relate and help.
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Working / Worked
- It is hard, it's a work in progress and the trauma recovery group stuff is the most painful thing ever especially being sober but I know I can't continue living in the darkness my whole life.
- Divorce Not Working
- I was too young when I got married and had no clue how to be a wife, didn't realize the damage inside and tho my ex was not perfect, he was a good guy. Regret it but that's life.
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- This is where most of my healing comes from.
- Leave Working / Worked
- Left the violent and abusive relationships. Sometimes it made it worse in the short term but I don't regret it.
- Music Working / Worked
- Definitely listening to spiritually uplifting music helps.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- It's a process and really depends on if you have a good councilor.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Depends on if you are dwelling and wollowing in your pain or looking for a solution.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- Without the faith I have in Christ I would not be able to live, I would slide into my depression and give up.
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked
- Deep seated from earliest memories - "Hell is for children" definitely described my childhood. NO MORE THO!!
Open Empty Nests
My son left to college, I am a single mom of three, my 9 yr girl is at home but in school. I miss my son as he is such a source of strength. I don't want him to know how alone I feel as it would worry him but I do. He is my daughter's "father-figure" and best friend and she is struggling to. I suffer from severe PTSD/Depression/Anxiety/Agorphobia/Panic
Treatments
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked
- Both my sons are adults now and in college, tho my baby girl (9) is home I still miss my boys so so much.
Open Sexual Abuse
Longtime abuse victim starting as child and continued through adult (not knowing there was anything different for me - that somehow that was to be my life), after birth of my daughter the nightmares/flashbacks/panic attacks, ect came on fullforce. I had a stroke and later a total breakdown causing hospitalization. I didn't know it was PTSD and my terror of not being able to protect my daughter was causing intense terror/anxiety/ ect. I finally sought therapy to help.
Treatments
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Considering
- Never heard of it.
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Work in progress
- Leave Working / Worked
- Shortterm it got worse but it's getting better.
- Music Working / Worked
- Absolutely must be careful what music I listen to, music has extreme effects on me so I listen to spiritually uplifting music.
- Reiki Not Working
- Never heard of it.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Only when the discussions are solution based, otherwise I will be retraumatizing through repeatedly dwelling on trauma.
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked
- Again goes along with the childhood stuff.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have dealt with depression as far back as I can remember, I now know it is related to PTSD/childhood abuse.
Treatments
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked
- Don't know anyone in aa/na that doesn't deal with this.
Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
My aunt who I greatly resemble (so I am told) drove in front of a train after my cousin committed suicide when I was 5. My brother put a gun to his head at 22 when I was 24. I first tried to commit suicide when I was 12. My baby sister died in a car accident - many say it was suicide. I wanted to die after that, begged God to let me not wake up in the morn. But my children's faces just wouldn't let me. I haven't felt that way in 5 years but there are definitely black days all I do is cry.
Treatments
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked
- My brother put a gun to his head christmas in a drunken depression. I have a few friends that chose to leave this world early.
Open Rape
It ruined my life and am just now able to see the damage, spent many years selfmedicated to drown out the pain and memories.
Treatments
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked
- Private
Open Bereavement
Where do I begin? I lost one sister in a fire, a brother who put a gun to his head on Christmas and my baby sister who hit an embankment at 117 mph. Those are just a few. I personally would like to shoot the coroner in the face (doesn't matter who he/she is). And I hate hearing "time heals", "aren't you over it yet" and all the other stupid things people say.
Treatments
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked
- We all deal with death, mine has been to many.
Open Alcoholism
Started "selfmedicating" at 12. I am in AA/NA and have 4 1/2 years yesterday. I know it doesn't matter because all that really counts is today. I first came to AA 20 years ago. The last relapse was on my sister's funeral and lasted over 3 years.
Treatments
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked
- Joined aa 20 yrs ago, now have 4 1/2 clean/sober yesterday.
Open Marijuana Addiction & Recovery
First time was 12 yrs. Joined aa/na at 19 yrs. Been clean/sober 4 1/2 years yesterday!! Last relapse was day of my sisters funeral, was out hard for over 3 years.
Treatments
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked
- 4 1/2 years clean yesterday!
Open Anger Management
I have dealt with anger and rage my whole life (can't imagine why). Add tequila and nothing good can come of it. Smoked alot of weed to control it. Now I am in AA/NA and PTSD/other therapy but the greatest relief has been through prayer/faith/forgiveness tho it's hard and I am a work in progress. It's amazing that the damage I've done wasn't heavier then it is.
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