is feeling OK
My bankruptcy is final in early August, my divorce shortly thereafter. I have to move out of a nice house in a nice quiet location. (The divorce will be liberating; the rest of the stuff is depressing.) Living with 20-year-old son and five (freakin') cats. (I am not a weird cat person -- I did not plan that.) I am battling anguish and depression and trying to fight off the internal desperation for a "rebound relationship." I am reaching out for a close female companion close to home but wouldn't want to drag anyone thru this crap with me. Must persevere!! Must find support, close or however far away!!
Walking, running, biking, nature/animals, writing, history, gardening. At present I am doing little more than my job, journaling and walking/running/biking every evening. I may be depressed, but I am as physically fit as I have been in 10-15 years. The exercise is an outlet for releasing the pain. I also teach ESL to immigrants but will have to give that up, at least temporarily, to attend to priorities.
August 22, 2008 10:02pm
I have regularly weighed in under 200 for a couple weeks now -- 197 today. I have spoiled myself with some ice cream and Gummy Bears lately.
July 12, 2008 5:06pm
I feel a bit more confidence in myself even tho the worst days are still ahead. I was pining for another woman who I knew was seeing someone else …
July 6, 2008 12:57pm
So where is this God, my God?
Where is his presence seen, felt, heard?
I am sure he, she, is all around me
Despite the hard armor that …
July 6, 2008 12:56am
“Hello darkness, my old friend,
I’ve come to talk with you again.
Because a vision softly creeping Left its seeds while I was …
July 4, 2008 12:49pm
I have lost 30 pounds since late January. If I could lose 10 more, than maintain that weight, I would be positively overjoyed!
awaiting your return...impatiently ;)
thanks for the hug and blessing, you are a nice man. watch your self ok found out you are moving.
you always have me
you in a farmhouse....depends on the number of animals that you have to put up with ;) dont overdo it while moving...dont need you hurting yourself
just because
Progress
75 %
Bankruptcy, depression, forced to move out of a nice house in a quiet location, generally starting over at age 55.
Divorce is finally final in August. (Hooray! It took forever.) I am struggling with whether or not I'm ready for another relationship.
