bearlyhere's Journal

I wrote this the other day when I was upset. Someone gave me a not nice lecture and it made me feel very bad. I know I should not react like this but it is very hard for me to take neg remarks. I just can't handle anymore put down.

MisUnderstood

Why should I live?

Why should I care?

Why do I hurt,

by the words from you.

No matter what I do,

it is not enought.

I can't please anyone,

so I give up.

Forgive me for my weakness.

Forgive me for my pain.

Forgive me for not being stronger.

Forgive me if I can't hang on.

May you life be full,

and your dreams come true.

For all I ever wanted,

was to be able to please you.

I am told I feel self pity

but I wish you would know

how much I hurt

because I can't please you.

Self pity is not what I feel.

It is pain and hurt

along with the feeling of helplessness

and lonelyness in this life.

I cry from pain.

I cry from hurt.

I care because I care

but no one hears my heart.

I'm sorry for my feeling,

I'm sorry for not being good enought.

I'm sorry I failed you.

I'm sorry for being myself.

What else can I say?

There are no more words.

I just hope for your happieness

when I leave this world.