secret17's Journal

I'm so conflicted...I'm super mad at my best "friend" because she thinks I'm trying to take her boyfriend away from her. I'm frustrated at what she is trying to do--I named her as one of the two "co-presidents" to replace me in the drama department next year, and she's upset because all the spot light isn't on her, and I'm going to have to deal with that. She's been a crappy ass friend...

But she's having major suguery in two days. Tuesday. Based on the outcome of that, she may end up having many many many more. I'm worried about her. I also want to slap the hell out of her. She wants to have nothing to do with her parents when she turns 18...but doing that will make her loose her health insurance...and she can't afford that in her situation. She lives in a fantasy world...and it is driving me insane. I'm going to have to talk to her tomarrow...and I'm going to have to be bluntly honest...and I feel like I'm being a bitch...I'm scared I'm going to loose my only friend...but then again, she hasn't been a great friend either.

I don't know. I'm just ready to move away from here and start a new life. Get new friends, talk to new people...be a different person. Just away from here...