secret17's Journal

Well, I tried to do yoga, but couldn't. I dunno, maybe I lost the interest. But I am going to see a play this thrusday with some people I know from Drama class...it's one of my favorite plays too! Little Shop of Horrors...okay, so it's technically a musical...lol! I think it will be good for me--I've never really gone out with my friends...I cant even rememeber the last time I hung out with people. I normally decide to go to social functions, get scared, and back out. I'm not doing it this time!! I'm going, come hell or high water...plus, I'm using this as my excuse to eat Chinese food!!! Yum!

Speaking of social functions, I am making an attempt to get some friends at my college before I get there. I've joined an online group for my college and I'm trying to talk to people, you know? I'd like to have some friends...I've never really had good friends. For a long time, I hung around people who where my "friends." Not really, but I claimed them as such. I knew they weren't good influences though...then my boyfriend and I started dating, and it gave me an excuse to break away from them. The problem then was that I had no friends except his friends, and while we got along okay...most of his friends and me didn't get along that well, contrary to popular belief. Then I made friends at my theater group...and that went downhill because they all started dating and having one tract minds. And they got jealous of me...and it just fell apart. I somehow manage to repel friends. I dunno, maybe my standards are too high...

Oh well. I'll figure something out. I'm looking forward to Thursday...but I'm also scared. I'm too shy...