AngeGirl2007's Journal

Today has been rainy...kinda grey...nice and cool...usually I'm feeling kinda down on days like this but today has been different. I have smiled...I have laughed...I have enjoyed myself today, a feeling that has been very hard to come by these days. It has felt so good though. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired, y'know?

Before going to my Al Anon meeting I was sweeping some crumbs off of my living room floor. I have never been a Felix Unger prototype where I am a fanatical neat freak but I used to keep a better house than I have lately. I am slowly growing tired of it looking as it is so what I can do I am going to have to discipline myself to do and make it a team effort.  Some chores require more self-discipline than others and so while I was sweeping this urge overtook me...a huge wave of silliness...before I knew it...I was dancing with mmy broom. Yes, I did! I was dancing with my broom. Jordan looked at me like my elevator didn't reach the top of my prayer tower and about all he could do was sit there, shake his head, and say, "Mom, you're a nut!" Ah, if he could have seen me in my younger days. Dancing with a broom is just the tip of my nuttiness iceberg!

Getting silly like that felt good. I have missed that feeling. I have been so wrapped up in the struggles of everyday life that I sometimes forget to count my blessings and enjoy what God has given me, which includes the gift of laughter.  I forget that what I am struggling with now, like life, is a here today, gone tomorrow proposition. And that though these things seem insurmountable now, they will not last. They will pass!  Sort of like some verry wise words I read earlier today:

                           "...we are afficted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not despairing; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed.....while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal." ```2 Corinthians 4: 8, 18