I was diagnosed PCOS last year …
I was diagnosed PCOS last year with a positive outlook from my OBGYN. This past weekend I went to my family …
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I have been in a lot of pain for the last few days. It's not the kind of pain like you experience during your cycle, where it feels like spasmodic cramping. It is a very dull aching in my lower back that has now found its way to my lower abdomen. It is very sore and tender to the touch. I barely slept last night even after taking something for the pain. This morning I took another pain reliever but it hasn't helped much. From my navel on down I am really hurting.
On top of this my breasts continue to hurt, which that has been going on since I lost Angel. They have even leaked some but that too has been going on since I lost Angel. It doesn't matter what I have to drink or if I have anything to drink at all I can't pee it out fast enough. I've barely touched food and yet I feel like I am five miles wide.
I know what this feels like yet I am afraid of entertaining the notion in the fear of 1) being wrong as I have been in the past and was completely devastated each time and 2) not being wrong and ending up losing another piece of me. I do worry about being able to provide because of the fact that I am out of work and have so far not had any luck finding work in spite of my efforts. I am barely providing as it is yet in the midst of our struggles we are being looked after and we're well cared for. I know I can't take any credit for that, that is God Almighty. I guess my fear goes beyond the financial provisions. I do not want to say another goodbye and that is the risk that is taken when you try again after a loss. If the truth were to be told though that is the risk you take when you find out the test is positive but only after you experience such a loss does it ever become one of the first thoughts that pops into your head. I know I found that to be true!
I guess for the sake of my own sanity I will neither dismiss it nor dwell on it. I have decided though that if the pain doesn't ease up some by Wednesday, I am making a trip in to see the doc and find out for sure what is going on. Either way this is miserable!
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Don't wait til Wednes. You need to go sooner. I am worried about you. I hope it is what you want, but if it is, you need to be seen now. I sound like a nag or mother. I know what you have went through. Please just at least call a clinic, or urgent care.
nowheregirl
I agree with nowheregirl ~ you shouldn't wait until Wed. The fear of what it could be won't go away until you find out. As hard as it could be for you to find out that you are expecting, it would be worse if it were something more serious. Please think about your health...after all you have several kids here on earth that need you with them. Don't take a chance. I will say a little prayer for you!
dulcylee
just take a test... i didn't know you were trying again. either way i hope you feel better. love and hugs, meg
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My prayers and thoughts are with you through this. Remember no matter what to keep God close with you...
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