this is sent out to you to read …
this is sent out to you to read haylie monday she want ten for green i said no ,complained and called me names tuesday …
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I will no longer allow myself to get close to people here or in my own personal life.
I have been dealt some serious blows during the past week. My heart aches!
My dear friend on here that I became extremely close to I fear has taken her life. She has been spiraling from day one. The last straw I believe was when she tried to reach me on Tuesday and I did not respond. My husband answered my phone. This caused her to become very angry. She accused me of "putting" my husband on the phone when she really needed to talk to me. She said this was the last time I would hear from her. She sent several texts that were very angry and threatening. I have tried to reach her to tell her I was having phone probs. She will not respond. She accused me of not being a good friend. I have done everything I possibly could have done for her. I also offered her a home. I feel I sent her over the edge by not being there when she needed me most. I had gone to bed at my normal time and did not respond to her. This one will haunt me all of my days.
My sister called last night to blast me for not keeping in touch with her. She accused me of being ashamed of my family. After she said what she needed to say she hung up. "The fine christian woman that she is!" The fact is my family has never been there when I needed them. NEVER! I invited my mother and my sister to my daughter's college graduation this weekend. My sister has chosen to be with a new boyfriend and my mother chose this weekend to be out of town. My family can only love on their terms.
Bob is working hard at job prospecting. He has his first interview today.
Sarah graduates Saturday. She is my light and my only reason for being in this world.
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listen, i know how hard it is but you can't blame yourself for someone else being miserable and possibly taking their life. you have to know you made some difference but it's up to that person to accept your love and help. it is not your fault, do not blame yourself. i feared you were getting too involved meaning taking things this person said to heart and blaming yourself for her hurting herself. you have to know when you've done all you could do. i mean this in the best most loving way possible. you need to take care of yourself and your family and your problems first. because when it comes down to it, you are all you have. i'm so sorry you are hurting so much but don't feel guilty about the situation. this person is not thinking rationally and as much as no one deserves what they've been through, you can't change only she can and she chooses not to. please know i care about you and the other person, but i take care of myself first but guess what it doesn't make me selfish. we have to know when enough is enough. i've been there, i understand. take it easy. love and hugs, meg
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Please remember that I will always be here for you. I am your family and would not let you down. Loving on their terms is not fair and now it is time to make them realize that you are not going to let that stop you. You need to understand that you are a good person and that you deserve happiness like everyone else. It is hard to be strong but I know that you can. If you ever need anything, please do not hesitate to ask.
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It upsets me that someone will blame you for not being there for them. You have been nothing but there for everyone. But just know that you cannot do everything, you have done all that God has given you. You are precious! You are loving! Don't let anyone affect the way that you feel. You choose to feel good about yourself. No one can do that but you...You are in my prayers and I am here if you need to talk...Take care of yourself!!! Angie
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Kathy, all the comments above are completely true - you have no responsibility in this situation; it was volatile from the start. We all have to make our own way in this world, and we all have to want to improve our situations. you have gone above and beyond reasonable expectations in terms of providing support to so many people here, including me. You are wonderfully compassionate, but please protect yourself. Your sanity, your peace and harmony are really important too. Value them, as we value you. lots of love.
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