Journal Entry for February 14, 2008
February 14, 2008 2:06am
well..i can't believe i am actually gonna say this...but i am doing really well..at least at the moment...i had an amzing night tonight...and i …
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OMG!!! Hey to anyone who remembers me from like forever ago...i'm sorry i "disappeared"...hope ya'll are great
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i'm 30years old. i have a beautiful and talented 7 year old daughter who is my true angel. she has saved me from some of my darkest hours. i was married for 6 years and with my husband since we were 17 in high school. we are going through a divorce. been separated since july 2006 right after i got out of my second rehab for my eating disorder. i also suffer multiple ental health issues. i have been sick for a long time and that is part of why my husband left me. i am alone for the first time ever and i am miserable. most recently my ex gave me a chance to work it out and then took it back a week later. it broke my heart..hurt more than when he left me the first time. bc i was sick the 1st time and he had reasons..i got better, did what i needed to for me, and asked for another chance. i will stop there for now bc i could go on for hours. lol
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my daughter is my main interest. she comes first in my life. i missed alot of time with her so i feel the need to make up for that. i like to ride horses. i love to read. i can't sit still long enough to watch tv anymore. but i try. i have spent my life iving a lie and hiding behind masks that i created to make someone else happy. i have not been happy in a very long time. so i am trying to find out what does make me happy...right now, the only thing that i enjoy is writing bc it takes me away from all the crap and pain...i write all the time...oh and i love to shop..i am a shopaholic and my current addiction is chanel...lol
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Hey sweetie, just got ur message! So gladur back. I'm not on here much but so happy to hear from you and see you are smiling!Big hugs to you!
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Well, i can't remember last time we spoke, but i left my husband 6 months ago because he was abusive, have been living in temporary accomodation but move into a house with some girl friends next month. On anti-depressants and ED has gotten bad and now i have a second appointment at an O/P centre next week which should hopefully lead to a treatmnet plan. So things are very up and down and taking each day as it comes! What you been up to? How's your beautiful daughter and adorbale dog?!
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Close Eating Disorders
Type: Anorexiai have suffered from an eating disorder fro over 14 years...i started off w anorexia then bounced to bulimia then back and forth...mostly i am what they call an anorexic w purging tendencies...bc i dont really binge like some do, but i will purge..it has been pure hell for me...most recently i enterd a treatment program, residential, back a while a go..i checked in for 30 days and stayed a lot longer than that..
Treatments
- Dietitian Consult Somewhat Helpful
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Lexapro Somewhat Helpful
- Outpatient Treatment Program Somewhat Helpful
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
Close Bipolar Disorder
wow..where to begin?? i was diagnosed bipolar just about 2 years ago. i had been being treated for depression but it wasn't working. i had a semi-psychotic episode, that i dont remember, where i flipped out on my husband (ex now) and wound up in jail...that's just the beginning i guess
Treatments
Open Breakups & Divorce
i was married for 6 years and with my husband since we were 17...we separated in july 2006..he wanted it not me..he put off filing but it was done and i was served the day before xmas eve..i am alone and miserable. we have a little girl
Open Cocaine Addiction & Recovery
my soon to be ex husband gave me my first line of cocaine and told me it was ritalin, so i did it...and when it hit, and dripped down my throat and i looked in the mirror i told myself that this was the devil.stay the fuck away.i knew then that if i was to get addicted that was it.we, my ex and i, have done coke a lot since and all thru our marriage and at the time our 5 yr old girl.even when i was in my secret and heavy addiction we used together, more in my pocket he didnt know was my control
Treatments
- Detox Somewhat Helpful
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Not Working
- Residential Treatment Center Somewhat Helpful
Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
my father killed himself when i was 4...i have never dealt with it...dont know what else to say
Treatments
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
Open ADHD / ADD
I was diagnosed with ADD bout 2 years ago. im not sure that i really do have it. its hard for me to say bc i have bipolar so i am always up and down doing a million diff things. i have a hrd time sitting still.
Treatments
- Strattera Somewhat Helpful
Open Personality Disorders
i'm a borderline...when first diagnosed immediately thought they were telling me i had multiple personalities..my therapist reccommened a book..called "i hate you, don't leave me"...i totally got that title...amazing book..to the point, and understood so much about me for the 1st time..WOW
Treatments
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
i'm obsessive with my thoughts mostly...and im a clean freak..vacuum at least 1 time a day if not 2...but mostly i just fixate on the same damn thing in my head over and over...
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Open Anxiety Disorders in Children
my daughter was diagnosed with anxiety several years ago..she just gets soo frustrated soo easily...and we are having problems with her now..she is going thru alot w the divorce and my illness and absence while in rehab and when i lost custody for a year..she is soooooo sweet and loving though..i love her to death
Treatments
- Play Therapy Not Working
- they misdiagnosed her with asbergers when she was 3 and sent us to a neurologist.
Open Child Support & Custody
i am a drug addict, bipolar, anorexic and other mental health issues..went to rehab for the substance abuse and the for the anorexia..i was gone almost a year..and i wasnt better when i came home..my husband kicked me out. iwas sick and he promised me certain things if i signed over temporary ciustody of our daughter..i did it and so regret it..i had supervised visits for a year..i now have joint physical custody but he hold the legal custody and is the primary caregiver.
Treatments
- Cardura Working / Worked
- we have a custtody agreement that we did through mediation..trying to avoid court but he tells me i will never have any legal custody of her...i dont want to go to court but i will if i have to..my lawyer has told me what i need to do to prepare and to prove i am able to care for her..all i want is equal custody of her both physically and legally..he tells me i will never get legal custody of any sort and that he will always be the primary caregiver..mediation worked in the end for right now.
Open Lupus
my mom has lupus..she is very ill and in and out of hospitals constatly..so much i cant keep up nor am i surprised when i get the call she i there..she has been sick for a very long time..it is very hard to deal with at this point bc i feel numb to it..and i cant help
Open Parents of Children with ADHD
my daughter was evaluated and diagnosed with an auditory processing problem but we had her hearing tested and its perfect..so the next step is the neurologist. they say its most likely ADD or ADHD.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
My father committed suicide when i was 4. we lost our home and went from very well off to almost on the street. i was bit by a dog shortly after his death on the face and have had 7 reconstructive surgeries
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- EMDR Somewhat Helpful
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