bluehippo's Journal

I don't know if men will ever be able to feel what it is like to not be able to have a child. I understand about male infertility, but that still does not put them in a woman's position (of not being able to carry life within themselves). I think there is something inherently different for a woman than it is for a man, the pain of infertility-that is. And I guess it goes both ways. However, today my husband said one of the sweetest and most caring things that he has ever said since this whole infertility saga begun...as I rambled on about the Donor X story in the April edition of O Magazine, he said that had he known how difficult it was going to be for us to conceive-he wishes he could go back in time and impregnate me the month prior to the doctors starting him on chemotherapy. I know that isn't much...and maybe it doesn't even make sense to anyone else. But it touched my heart and let me know that he is aware that the aching in my heart is present and he wishes he could take it away.