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today was ok Mood

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Wow dang i am tired! i didn't get to sleep til like 3 am last night but the thing is i finally got to sleep so i was happy. I took provigil when i woke up at 9 this morning but i fell back asleep lol

so i woke up and it was thundering allll crazy i was scared. Zieke wasn't though he is so brave! My spasm got a lot better i guess i just needed to give it time. it's so hard patience is not something i am good at i need to work on it more.
I didn't end up going to pilates because i just feel "out of it" i dunno kinda cloudy i guess...so i figure maybe i need a day off from exercise. But i cleaned the whole place, cleaned up the yard, did laundry and cooked dinner so i did actually do something...

But something broke my heart.
Brett wrote me to say thank you that i write him everyday (e-mails) because nobody else does. he says he feels like no one cares...he has written his friends and they haven't even wrote back...
He's real lonely out there it's his first deployment. He feels bad because he says people say it's "nothing" because it's "only 3 months." I got mad because these people that are saying that have never been deployed like they would even know! It's a deployment to a hostile territory...And things like magazines, e-mails, and letters are gold! His friends are so cocky and ignorant...

I was upset that none of them checked up on me but i'm doubly upset they aren't even talking to brett. It would only take one second to say hi...

But i told him all about you guys that you guys give me more support than our so called friends here. I feel bad for him because nobody is writing him...i can't believe it...

poor brett :(

Oh well at least he's seeing the true side of them now than later...
He should be getting a package i sent him filled with magazines, puzzle books, automated sudoku game, cards, and other fun stuff in like the next week. Hopefully that will cheer him up.

I also wrote him two letters this week so when those get there maybe he'll smile a little bit.

I just wanted to say thanks to all of you. I mean you guys have never actually met me i mean you see pics and read my deepest thoughts that i don't tell anyone but in a lot of ways i feel the support you guys have given has kept me from going off the deep end more than once :)

thanks

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Joey, you should share Brett's email... I'd love to send him my "happy journals" and with the garden going in and the chickies coming soon, I expect to have many happy things to say from my farm! If you look at my journals as a whole, I don't complain are rarely share my challenges. In fact, someone on here accusted me of having "benign MS" (whatever that is) because I try to always be positive.

Current steriods notwithstanding, you can see that I have happy journals. Or, you are welcome to pick and choose and send what you want. I have no soldiers oversees right now. Soon, I will have a neighbor's son and soon-to-be-daughter-in-law in Iraq, so that may change. But, Goddess knows, I have lots of time on my hands in the evenings and would be honored to be able to write to Brett or share farmlife so he knows he's coming back to the good ole USofA! xoxoox Cj

ddeadred
aww you are so sweet :)

Joeyrose1107
You should start a Brett fan club,Joey he is doing a good thing love. Start a fan club and we can send him stuff like books etc.He needs support i know you are giving him loads but if we all do it to it would be so much better for both of you.

poppyme
I would also enjoy emailing someone out fighting like he is. My brother in-law was in Aphganistan (sp?) for over a year & is safely
back in Ontario & very glad to be back. I get funny stuff I could send along.

darcie