momsren's Journal

After agreeing to 50/50 custody with my stbx with the condition that he keep the kids away from his girlfriend and her son, the first day he has them, he takes them over to her house with her son to spend the night.  Not that I'm shocked or anything.  I still feel like I made the right decision for our boys.  They need to see their dad.  I do feel like he never had the intention to keep them away from his "new" family, though.  It's weird, though.  Most of my anger towards him and his new "family" is gone.  I guess I'm just resigned to the fact that he doesn't give a damn about anyone but himself and his own wants and "needs."  The anger I felt for him is now replaced by a deep sadness and feeling of pity for him.

I truly feel sad for him.  It's like he just doesn't get it.  He can't see how his actions are hurting our kids.  It's like he can't see beyond what he wants right at this moment in time. 

We are supposed to meet on Friday to discuss the finances.  I'm hoping we can come to some kind of agreement without legal intervention.  This is the last hurdle to our divorce process.  If it all goes well, we should be able to finalize everything in June.  Then we can both move on with our lives.  I'm looking forward to that actually.  I just want this whole thing done with.