LisaJoM's Journal

Howdy all,

I've moved back into the house and Kent and I are talking really talking.  First time I sat there and looked at him for 30 min. before speaking!  MS wise pretty much stable.  Last MRI shows no changes!  Avonex is working.  No change for a year!  Yesterday forgot to take meds. and didn't go to sleep until 5 am ugh!  Today have family reunion thing at 1 ugh.  Since coming home, my horses are not allowed on propterty, my camper and truck are not allowed here.  Kent's dad owns the farm we own 1 acre.  So I do not want to be around them very much.  So this afternoon will be a bummer for me.  But I am going and going to kill them with kindness, just to be mean .  They haven't spoken directly to me since moving back in.  You know there is nothing wrong in their son's relationship-it's all me.  I've accepted it don't like but accepted it.  Don't know how to explain.  I go to work stop and play with the horses on the way home, cook supper, pick up etc.  I don't do anyone else's laundry that is helping quite a bit acutally.  Feel kind of guilty but it seems to be helping.  Horses are in a better place.  The fences are good.  I put up 3 acres, the barn doesn't leak and they are living with shavings.  I have someone to ride with and unless they are gone for the weekend they clean the stalls so I don't have too.  I miss looking out the window and seeing the guys but they are only 2 miles down the road.  I am sooo tired, dizzy and weak today but this too shall pass.