LisaJoM's Journal

Hello, I am back living at old troy pike.  Felt like was having nervous breakdown.  The exhaustion was getting to me.  Kent and I are actually talking, really talking.  I've been going to counseling for about 8 mos. I'd asked him to go too.  He said there was no way in h*** he was going.  Well, guess what, he came to my apt on thurs.  We have a couples apt. on monday.  Hopefully I get off owrk in time to get there!  I came back last weekend.  I've actually gotten rest this week!  The downside is my horse is down at my Mom's 2 hrs away.  Kent's dad owns the farm and says my horse can't come back on the property.  He is being an A**.  Says can't b/c of the liability.  That's bull cuz the cows get out on a weekly basis.  Good thing is NOW, took a week, but it happened.  Kent went out and said I love Lisa we are trying to work this out horse is improtant to her can something be worked out.  Took a week of me trying to tell him how I felt-less than-b/c he wouldn't say that to hiis dad.  But like I said he actually went out and said it.  It is so hard for me to say how I feel.  I made an apt to talk w/Kent on weds.  I just sat there and looked at him for a half an hour before I could actually formulate what I wanted to stay.  One of our things is not talking, I've always felt belittled when I would talk.  I am telling Kent that and we are working on it.  He is trying ont to do that.  I am working on talking.  This is helping me b/c I am working on getting my feelings out.