latsyrcsc's Journal

Still loosing weight. I started out at 190 on jan 1st..and as of today 5/7/08 I'm 165. I have 15 more lbs to loose to meet my original goal.

I'd really like to 30 more lbs..but I'd be happy with 15 more.

I feel great about myself. I actually feel sexy for a change. I'm smaller now than I was when Brandon and I started dating a year and a half ago.

Things with brandon are really weird lately. I think he's about to break up with me. Brandon is really shy..quiet..conservative..very well mannered..kinda old fashioned...not a people person.. but has his stuff together financially..not romantic at all..just to give you an idea of his personality.

The past few weeks..he's been really distant. He doesn't talk as much..avoids eye contact. He's been getting angry with me over stupid things. Snapping for no reason. Really quiet..more so than usual. When he's with me, he doesn't seem happy anymore. It's really weird..cause just a month ago we were talking about our future together..marriage..even what type of wedding we wanted...even joking talked about baby names. I just don't understand it. It's gotten to the point where I don't enjoy being around him anymore. In fact..this coming weekend, I'm going to tell him I think we need to have a weekend to ourselves since we're together every weekend..tell him to go out with the guys or gets some rest or something..and I"m going to have a girls night out. Just to avoid being around him..I hate it when he's like this..when I have confronted him on it he says I'm overreacting. He won't open up to me about what's bugging him. I just have a feeling it's over... but u know what...I'd rather it be over than to deal with his moody ass for the rest of my life. I'm glad I'm finding this out sooner rather than later...grr..men

This diet is going so slow. I wish it'd speed up a bit. But atleast I'm 1 lb away from meeting my first goal of 170. I've been getting many comments from people saying that I'm looking great and have noticed the weight loss. Makes you feel really good. I also have joined a gym and go about 3 days a week. I just walk 2 miles on the treadmill. Every little bit helps.