Sydney03's Journal

Not to much going on...which is actually nice.  I organized most of the house, gathered lots of stuff together for Salvation Army, and even cleaned the garage up.  This last week I have been lazy, so even though it is just the two of us, the house is starting to get messy again.  I have gained back three of the twelve pounds I lost, too.  Need to drop those three pounds and lose two more and then I will be at the perfect weight! :)  I refuse to go buy new pants, even though mine are falling off, until I keep the weight off for several more months (to make sure it is staying off!)  I did buy myself three teeny tiny bikinis...don't look half bad in them, either!  I guess that is one advantage to never having children. 

I gave away the day bed...holding onto it in the hopes that I have a girl is pointless.  I am also going to get rid of my fertility books anf pregnancy books.  I think the more I cleanse, the faster I will be able to move forward.  The last step will be gettting rid of the baby clothes, blankets, and toys I purchased over the years for the child we will never have.  That will be my true acceptance.