MrsBarker's Journal

Hello Everyone!!!

Ok.. this is how things have to be.. I HAVE to stick to the plan this time. I HAVE to stop making excuses... I HAVE to make a promise to all of you, and myself to never look back, and push forward!!

I have taken FAR too long to reach my goals.. always with an excuse in hand, an injury, being sick, loss of a friend.. but something I have to realise is all of those things are a part of life! I am going to have to push through all of those obstacles and still focus on weight loss!

I just lost my best friend to basically, complications from a surgery DUE TO obesity! I dont want to be that person. I dont want my friends and famly to have to say goodbye to me at such a young age. Its not fair to them or to me. I have SO much that I want to do. So many people who I want to help and lives I want to influence.. so many experiences I want to have...

SO... Tomorrow.. Moday, July 21st 2008 has to be the day I turn a new leaf. I am going to start the SBD again... AND, I need all of you.. I hate to ask for this after I have been so distant these past couple of weeks.. But I NEED you to help keep me accountable.. PLEASE help me to stay on track.. I always did my best when I had all of you rallying around me. PLEASE PLEASE be with me on this so that I can experience the success that I NEED for my help. If I dont stay away from the carbs, I WILL have full on diabetes... I WILL have high bloodpressure, and I WILL have heart disease like every other person in my family. I dont want to sound desperate, but I am now realising the urgency..

Love to all of you. Hugs to you and thank yous in advance.